Love Bites

Ch. 1

Robyn // Rihanna

I wake up to a dark room, shades drawn. The first few seconds, before my heart can catch up to my mind, I forget reality and feel ok. And then it hits me like a ton of bricks. And My head hurts... My stomach hurts... My heart hurts. Because of who i am, what I am, pain and grief are heightened for me. What an average person feels is always 10 times worse for someone like me.

I dont want to get out of bed. I dont want today to become even more real than it already is right now. If I get up, that means I'm accepting what happened. And I'm just not ready to do that.

Today we bury mama Tina. She's been the only mother figure in my life. She was the one who taught me to be who I am.

She was a witch. Well, not just any witch. She was one of the original witches and she was our witch.

She's Bey's biological mother, but they took me in when I was 19. That's when I died. They found me raped and practically beaten to death. They found me as I was about to take my last breath and Bey changed me. I'm her childe and I'm eternally grateful for them.

It was 1938 and mom, Bey, Solo & Shawn had just moved to Barbados. Every 10 or so years, they moved to keep suspicion away, and it was fate that brought them to me that night. I was born and sort of raised in Barbados. My mother was a drug addict, and I've never met my sperm donor. When I was 12, my mother and I were kicked out of our home. She left me on a street corner and told me she'd be back. After 30 hours of standing in that same spot I realized she was never coming back for me. So, I learned to be on my own. To take care of myself. I was living on the streets when that terrible night happened. I was walking back to where I laid my head and these 2 men were drunk and walking back from the bar. Because I've always been attracted to women, I hadn't yet lost my virginity, and I never thought that'd be the way I was going to lose it. I dont remember much after trying to push them off. I think it was so traumatic that my brain blocked it out. The next thing I saw were 2 women standing over me. Beyoncé held her wrist to my lips causing me to drink warm liquid. When I opened my eyes again, I was in their home and the rest was history.

Now 80 years later, we're putting our mother to rest...

I swing my legs over the bed and walk to the window, drawing back the shades. The sky reflects my emotions. Dark and cloudy.

I grab my silk robe and cover my naked body. I slip on my slippers and walk down the hall to Bey's room.

Before I even reach her door, I hear her soft sniffles. We can hear everything hundreds of feet away, so even though she's trying to be quiet, I can hear her.

"I hear your breathing, Rih." Her voice cracks. I take a deep breath and open the door. Beyoncé is laying on her side, facing away from me, but I see her playing with her daylight ring. It was mama Tina's engagement ring from Beys father, and she gave it to Beyoncé as a gift.

"Bey?" I softly get into her bed and wrap my arms around her waist, holding her tightly. Hearing her like this, seeing her like this, its killing me. Bey's my best friend, shes my person, and shes always been so strong. so seeing her so weak just feels strange.

"Robyn, I'm ok. You know you're the only person that will see me weak." I hate that she's clairvoyant. Mom made me a special necklace that blocks anyone from reading my thoughts, but I forgot to put it on.

I squeeze her waist tighter, nodding my head and just lay with her.

After ten minutes of silent crying I hear footsteps coming from downstairs.

"Shawn's coming." Bey says. I just think an 'oh' before snuggling back into her

A second later there's a knock on the door. Shawn doesn't wait for a response before just coming in.