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There is a villa in Thailand that I used to take her to when we wanted to get away from her family, my family and the world.
I took her there that vacation because of that reason solely.
Her family was pressing her to get married with a guy of their choice. Why they didn't want me? Well, because her father hated my father's guts. Our family has been going on a rivalry like The Montague and The Capulet.
The villa is beautiful. It's near a private water fall that cost me a fortune. But she was happiest when she was there, so I didn't really mind about the money. The water fall is big, deep and has a fast of water current that can be deadly. I always placed people to help out in the case of drowning when we enjoy our time there.
The last time I took her there was along with my friends. Hoseok brought his newest girl toy and so did Namjoon. But Jin was alone, maybe because of Namjoon. They were so hard to figure out, still are to this day. But everyone in our clique knew that they liked each other more than the recommended daily basis of a best friend.
Yes, even Namjoon too.
Don't let the playboy façade fools you. Love, you can see it in one's eyes. He always grows soft when it comes to Jin. He let everything Jin's did slide by. The fact that Jin is not naughty like Jimin and Jungkook probably helps a lot. Otherwise, Namjoon's life is probably harder than it already is.
But they know they won't happen.
Just like me and her. We knew we won't happen.
Maybe I should blame my stubbornness for this. I pursued her since we were in Junior High and she finally succumbed when we almost said good bye in High School. She was stubborn too, that was why it took a long time.
But what can I do?
I love her.
I love her pink slightly plump lips and the way she smiled and laughed. I love her straight long black hair and how she did her hair. I love her natural blush and how soft those cheeks felt when I kissed her. I love her quite personality that suited my taste of silence. I love her brain and the way she questioned me on strange things that the boys and I did. I love her soft heart and the fact that she couldn't say 'no' to me and almost anyone she loved.
I love her. I love every bits of her down to her bad traits of biting nails when she was nervous and cursed like a sailor when she was angry.
Maybe I should be more like Jin: letting go on things that I know isn't meant to be.
But I can't help it.
I still remember that day. She smiled and laughed almost throughout the vacation. Jin told me that I was very blessed to have her as mine. Tell me something I didn't know. We hug, kissed and made love more than we could count.
That night, I couldn't find her in our bed room.
I called and called and called for her name. Then shouted. Then frantically searched.
She was nowhere.
The boys helped on the search and we found her on the edges of the water fall. I sought a relieved breath when I saw her.
She turned around when I called her name.
I couldn't see her that well because of the darkness but somehow I couldn't forget her face that night, or her eyes. Her eyes filled with so much sadness and agony. That eyes made my breath caught up in my throat.
