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Chapter 5

Sam

I walked down the crowded hall, I was in the shallow end of the genepool as far as height, muscle and good looks went, more brains than brawn. I had been here a week and had made three friends, other than my brother who would say my name a little too loud as he passed me, Jessica Moore (though she goes by Jess) and Ruby (she never gave a last name). Jess seamed overly fond of me, even after I explained how adamant I felt towards waiting for my soulmate. Ruby flipped her blonde hair over her shoulder and let out a humoured sigh at that before informing me that I could be a virgin until I'm forty in which I explained that I'd never said anything about sex just relationships. Of course that was how I felt about sex too but it caused Ruby to nod approvingly and stop talking and Jess to blush furiously.

I entered the library and sat at a small empty table, pulling books from my bag as I sat, Ruby taking the seat opposite me.

"So what are your words?" I looked up as Ruby picked her nails as if she hadn't just asked something that was as spiritually, emotionally and philosophically personal as it is physically personal to ask someone's dick size.

"Wha- no" I grumbled and got back to my work, I'd felt particularly down about it all since I'd gotten an answer out of Dean after he'd been acting all gooey with lovey dovey eyed and smiled for several days.

"Wanna know mine?" she had a book open on soul mates, I noticed the page had pictures of hands.

"No" she finally looked at me and rolled her eyes, looking back down to her book.

"I don't know how I feel about it all. I mean its something that takes the control from us y'know, who gave God the right" she paused leaving the rhetorical question floating in the air between us. I just stared pursed lipped waiting for her to continue.

"BUT" several heads turned.

"Then its also like I'm lazy so yea take the reigns and whatever plus its sort of like a dom or master and pet thing. Us having no control and technically everything we do is out of our control" the way she finished her sentence was if she was about to come up with the answer to life itself.

"In conclusion, God is a dom master top ... big dick energy ...Daddy" I chocked on air at that and felt a blush cover every inch of my body.

"I don't even know what half of that means" I complain not realising that basically was an invitation for her to explain. She smirked at my obvious regret for my wording.

"N'aw bubba. Dom as in dominant like sub and dom like dom is the strong one that takes control and can ether like inflict pain on the other like a sadist or likes the baby and take care of the sub. Then sub is basically the opposite. Then master is like an owner of like their pet who is like their weird sex partner, then top as in the guy that puts his dick in the bottom or the other guy" she took in a big breath and continued.

"Big dick energy is like a guy is confident and can be cocky but in a good way, like all his confidence and his personality isn't just compensating for something and a Daddy, well thats just a kink but can be other things I suppose like in ddsm" she shrugged as if it was normal for a thirteen or fourteen year old to know so much, though I wasn't exactly normal myself so maybe it was in fact a thing most people my age knew.

"I didn't mean for you to tell me all of that" she went back to reading as if she hadn't just likely told me stuff Dean didn't even know, or at least I hoped he didn't know. I cringed, that image wasn't pleasant.

"Y'know some people have hands on them, like instead of words, that must be shitty. To know that at some point in your life you're gonna go deaf and you'll never hear your soul mates voice" I already knew this of course, I'd read most the books on soul mates pretty much as soon as I could read, all the books written in English that is.