『 Ｐｒｏｔａｇｏｎｉｓｔ 』 ［まふ月/MafuTsuki］

Don't blame yourself

The two rushed onto the bed, sitting up. Mafu didn't let go of the other at any moment. He was stuck to him like glue. The young man didn't even realize how deep he dug his fingernails into the others' waist.
"Hey, Mafu. Calm down."
Amatsuki pat the Albino's hands in hope of him to let go. He finally realized it and released the tension in his arms:
"Oh, I'm- I'm so sorry, Amatsuki-san!", he whimpered, while nervously cupping his hands
"It's okay, it's okay."
The older pulled him closer again, hugging him by his neck and gently kissing his head. He noticed the younger becoming more restrained again. The brown haired man caressed the shorter's back, giving him a feeling of safety and comfort. He figured that this was all Mafu wanted and mostly - needed. Love and proximity. Without being yelled at. Or being forced to do things he didn't want to. The Albino, whose head was tilted down, seized the moment and pulled the others shirt up a bit, exposing dozens of nail imprints, some of them so deep they were slightly bleeding. He was shocked - both because of the fact he hurt his best friend and also because of what had bottled up inside him to make him able to even do such a thing. He sobbed.
"Hey, don't worry. I'm okay. This is gonna heal in no time."
As if on cue, Mafu carefully kissed the wounds on the others' left side. Though, as soon as he noticed what he was doing he quickly stopped.
"Uh, I'm... I'm sorry."
He nervously turned his head sideways. The older smiled, turning his face back by his chin. They locked eyes and then both leaned in for a kiss. Mafu emitted a moan when Amatsuki slid his hands up his shirt on his sides. The Albino suddenly backed off from the other, looking down.
"What's wrong?", Amatsuki pushed their heads together. Mafu didn't want to admit it, but he was reasonably scared of intimacy at this point. Whenever he got this far with Soraru, he became violent. He'd do whatever he pleased, without considering possibly hurting the younger.
Amatsuki could sense the others' worries. So he stroked over his head, before hugging him tightly, yet carefully.
"No need to be scared, Mafu. I won't do anything you don't want me to do."
The Albino sighed. He felt as if he had disappointed everyone with how he was.
"Amatsuki-san...", Mafu kneaded his hands, "Am I... A bad person?"
"What do you mean?"
The younger looked at his friend with sad eyes:
"Those things that... Soraru said. Well, they're... Basically all true. I am clumsy. I am making a lot of mistakes. I'm not making anyone happy..."
The other worriedly frowned:
"Mafu... Please, don't let ANYONE ever tell you you aren't worth it. Don't let anyone make you feel like garbage, just because they have their own issues they can't work out. You are a beautiful person. And you make so many people happy. Every single day."
The Albino sighed.
Amatsuki hugged his friend yet again:
"Soraru is the bad person here. He made the actual mistakes. He made you feel bad."
The younger tried not to burst out in tears. Amatsuki held the others' face in his hands, looking him directly in the eyes:
"How could he do that to my precious angel?"
This was the tip of the iceberg for the Albino, and he started crying profusely. He cried so much and so loudly, not stopping for at least 10 minutes. After which he finally calmed down, though. Amatsuki, still holding the other in his arms, slowly lay down with him. He pulled the blanket over themselves, before wiping some of the boys' tears away. Mafu's sobs were gradually becoming calmer and quieter, as he slowly and exhaustedly drifted to sleep. The older gave him a final peck on the forehead, as he soon fell asleep as well.

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Y'all, is this concluded?
Or should I make another part?

Thanks for reading!

~Hanya <3