She is supposed to be there when...
I'm not myself
I have dark thoughts
I feel worthless
I don't see the light anymore
I'm lost in my mind
She was there at the beginning but now
Time moves forward and she also moved forward
Leaving me behind to catch up but every time
I would feel like I'm close but it always messes itself
It wasn't always my fault but I would blame myself because that's how it is for me
I try and try to fix it so she and I would be happy but... happiness doesn't exist around us
She would hurt me physically, verbally, and mentally so I would the same
But fight fire with fire just makes the flames bigger and more dangerous
I don't know what to do; I am lost, and confused, and even scared a lot
She is the only one I feel comfortable expressing myself to the fullest
But now when she doesn't really want to hear your bitchy problems
When it comes to her I'm supposed to know what to do or say knowing full well I suck at situations like these
But I do some from a family with some special types of people so...
I don't know if this how I really feel or what my brain is telling me to feel
I don't understand my own way of thinking all I know is I just need her to help me
That's all I ever ask to her
She's the key to figuring out what the fuck I am
However, she wants me to figure out myself like I have the mental stability to do so but I'll try and fail over and over again just like when I was a kid
But all I can do is try to see if maybe something will happen but the possibility of doing that myself is slim
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The Thoughts of a Blue Boy
PoetryA close friend of mine told me to come here to let out anything I feel so that's why I'm here I come and go but it's feeling like it's gonna be weekly but I ain't sure about hat yet I suck at writing so if I make any grammar mistakes just tell me th...
