Liar [Vmin]

Phase 9

I went into my room after he told me goodnight and I closed my door.

Why couldn't he just leave my head?

I hated how weak I was. I hated how damaged my mind was. I hated myself. I hated my hair, my face, my body. I hated everything.

I breathed in slowly and tried calming down.

You'll be fine.

It's fine.

I repeated this several times until my heart rate stabilized and I got up. I sat on my bed and stayed there trying to recollect my thoughts.

I had to leave here, but could I? They'd already done so much. Not to mention Jungkook buying me so many things. I couldn't just leave. That would make Taehyung believe and confirm what he initially thought and I had just gained his trust somewhat.

"Such a fuck up." I said gripping my hair tightly

I rubbed my eyes and slipped on pajamas before going underneath the blankets. I curled into a ball and I suddenly wished my mom was next to me. Hugging me like she used to when I was little. Whispering sweet words of encouragement.

"Its been 7 years mom." I whispered quietly "I miss you so so much. You, dad, Hyeya. You all left so fast and I couldn't even say goodbye. I miss you. You and dad always told me to be strong...and I'm trying. I promise."

Silent tears escaped my eyes as I pulled the heavy blankets over my head and fell asleep with tears still streaming down my face

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I didn't know what I'd do today. It felt strange not getting up early to do chores. It felt strange not getting bossed around.

I recalled my memories from yesterday and I sighed heavily.

I took a quick shower and started picking out my clothes.

I rummaged through my closet and picked out a black long sleeved shirt and some ripped jeans. I put those on and shrugged a jacket on. I applied a small amount of makeup, just to hide my swollen eyes, and fixed my hair.

I exited the room and found the kitchen where everything was quiet.

Strange.

I checked the time and it was only 10:30.

I decided I'd make pancakes and I quickly took out the ingredients. I searched some more and smiled when I saw chocolate chips. I whipped up the batter and added the chocolate before I heated the pan.

With a spoon I poured the batter into a perfect circle until I had 4 cooking.

I started singing to myself as I flipped over the pancakes.

It was a song called Little Star by Standing Egg and it was one of my favorites.

I finished the song and I smiled knowing I still remembered the words. I wasn't allowed to sing when I was at home. Minhyo would say that I annoyed him so I stopped.

"Where'd you learn to sing?" A shrill scream escaped my lips as I whirled around catching sight of blue hair

In that case I wished I'd just faint.

"I took classes when I was younger." I said trying to maintain calm "Do you want some?"

"Sure." He said quietly