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I walked to the room and saw him snoring away. Xenos stared at him with the look a parent has when looking at their sick kid. He doesn't even let me near him now. Trevor's weak body definitely had issues handling what I did. He is too fragile and weak still. I should've known better. The rough sex we both put him through definitely did a number on him.

Even when I made him my mate, he practically slept a whole week long. Now he seems to have a fever and just is not feeling well. It's been a few days and he hardly has eaten a thing. He still is afraid of me and probably even more now. It's so conflicting and confusing. I crave both of them separately and together. Yet also feel jealous at times of their bond. It makes me an odd one out. Xenos pays a lot more attention to Trevor and vice versa. Then again they're both Omegas so I assume they have some deeper understanding of one another. Especially seeing them now, as I lean up against the doorway. He's completely comfortable with Xenos.

"Xenos... um, I need to talk to you." I said.

"What!?" He snapped. He crossed his arms. He leaned back against the headboard as he glared at me. Trevor had his head rested on his lap and his arm draped over him.

"I didn't mean to... I would never purposely tie anyone without a heat. You bit me and I lost it. I'm sorry." I said. He rolled his eyes. I walked over to him and could feel the tension. Trevor opened his eyes and jolted staring at me.

His brown eyes looked so fearful. He was even trembling as he looked at me. He was trying not to show it but I could tell. He was terrified of me. Of Alpha's even Beta's. He was scared of everything and everyone, which made sense. We didn't quite know the extent of his abuse but given his body's condition, it must have been extensive.

"I'm sorry." I said as softly as I could. His expression changed slightly.

"I-its okay." He said, smiling slightly. I leaned down to try to kiss him and Xenos growled at me. Basically shoving him back and putting himself in front of him. I halted and I grabbed Xenos face and kissed him. Resting my forehead against his. His blue eyes looked enraged.

"I love you pup. I'm sorry." I smiled. He tried to avoid my gaze and rolled his eyes. It made me feel sick the way he was acting. It hurt me. I didn't want my mates to hate me. Especially not him.

"Do it again and I'll kill you." His wolf growled. It stirred up my wolf and immediately. I wanted to dominate him, put him in his place. I felt my eyes shift but quickly shook them back. I got up and walked out of the room before I did anything stupid.

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Xenos has changed a lot lately. He's becoming more and more dominant. It's almost dangerous. He provokes me too much and his over protectiveness of our mate is also annoying. Trevor is passive and fearful, so I understand the need to provide protection to him. But he is taking it out of hand. Trevor needs to socialize too but even then Xenos gets angry.

The poor Omega has had it rough and doesn't understand things. He gets really scared when Xenos and I butt heads. I can't help but feel jealous and annoyed when he doesn't even let me kiss him without threatening me. I am bigger than him, older, regardless of third form or not. I could hurt him if I fought with him.

I took a walk outside and saw my mother in her small garden she had. I wanted to talk to her so I walked over to her. She had not been by herself since dad died. Which I couldn't even imagine the pain she still felt.

"You tied that Omega?" She said not looking up from what she was doing.

"It was an accident." I said.

"I know but be careful. Luckily Omegas can take it better, even without the heat. If he was a Beta or another Alpha you could have permanently damaged him." She said sternly.

"I know. I feel horrible. Xenos even threatened me. I just don't know what to do. I'm a horrible Alpha. I can't even take care of my mates so how am I supposed to take care of our pack? I'm not good enough." I began to cry. My body trembled. I miss my father and his wisdom. My mom walked up to me and wiped my tears and pulled me into a hug.

"You're a good boy and I'm here to help you as are the elders. You're a good leader, you always have been. It'll be alright ... I miss him too but he'd be so proud of you." She said. Her words calmed me as I embraced her.

I walked back in the house and sat down at the table. I was stressed out and upset. She believed in me but I still didn't quite believe in myself. Xenos out of control behavior also didn't help anything. I wanted to make my mates happy and keep them safe. I didn't like how everything was happening anymore.

It was hard enough to keep track of the one mate. Now I have two. One that's sickly even. I needed to contemplate a lot of things. Like how would I even do this anymore.