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Xenos POV:

"Xenos you're pregnant." I didn't know what to think or do or even feel. The words sent a shiver down my spine.

"But I'm a guy doc." I blurted out.

"I know but Omega's are different. Remember we aren't completely human. Omega's are the only males who can become pregnant when it comes to our pack structure." He said calmly. I felt sick and scared.

When doc left, Nico didn't even come in. I stared out the window and saw him running in wolf form into the woods. I couldn't help but cry a little. Was he angry at me?

Trevor walked in and sat down with me. He had a strange aura to him. His scent was stressed. I stared down and looked at him.

"Do you hate me?" I asked.

"No."

"Then why do you look like that?" I asked. He had a saddened look with a hint of something else. He was difficult to read at times.

"Like what?" He whispered. I felt angry and pushed him down and sat on him pinning his arms above his head.

"I know you and Nico did it without me. Are you jealous? An omega like you can't conceive. So you had to take my Alpha." I barked. Trevor looked at me with a shell shocked look. I didn't know why I was being so mean to him. Taking it out on him and wanting to hurt him.

"I didn't... I didn't take your Alpha. Why would you say something like that? You were my mate first and I only wanted you. I can't help that I want to be with him also. He's my Alpha now too. I never even thought about stealing him. How could you say that to me? Do you really think that low of me? Do you hate me? You ask if I hate you but I could never... but you've been so mean to me. I'm sorry I existed. I didn't want me to either. I'm so sorry." He started crying really hard.

"Stop looking at me like that!" My wolf growled. My fangs emerged and my eyes turned.

"Xenos stop it! You're hurting me." He sobbed.

"You don't get to tell me what to do, useless Omega. I own you. I'm higher than you." My wolf bellowed. I couldn't control my wolf. I bit down onto his shoulder hard.

"Xenos stop, stop please, I'm sorry! I'm jealous, I'm jealous, stop, I'm sorry!" He sobbed.

"Xenos!" Nico growled. My wolf immediately recoiled.

"You betrayed me! You wanted him too. Greedy bastard!" I couldn't control my wolf anymore. I shifted and barred my teeth. Nico shifted too. We circled each other for a moment, our wolves snarling. I was so angry and frustrated. I didn't want kids. Not now, not only that but I could tell my mate didn't either.

"Stop it please! I'm sorry... I don't want you two to fight this is my fault. I'll leave. Okay? Don't fight anymore!" Trevor sobbed. He stumbled up and took off.

Nico and I looked at each other. Unsure of what to think. I immediately took off after him. Despite my anger, the feeling of him running away bothered me even more.

"Xenos!" He growled. I told my wolf to ignore. We ran after him. In wolf form I was much much faster then him yet for some reason when I reached the edge of the woods it was silent. His scent was gone. Nico eventually caught up and we looked at each other.

I shifted back into human form and stood up. It was cool out and there was a breeze. There was no reason I shouldn't be able to smell him.

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When some time passed and I was left with the consequences of my actions, I felt absolutely horrible about what I had said. Nico made it very apparent that this was a lot my fault and how abusive I was being towards him. I was scared, angry, and jealous so I took it out on him. There was no reason for me to do that to him at all. I was bad about that, my attitude, and rage. He was always kind to us. I was the true disgusting one here. Not Trevor. I admittedly don't like sharing them with each other for whatever reason.

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I sat against the wall in the bathroom staring at the toilet. I practically lived here and since Trevor's been missing the sickness is even worse. My emotions and Nico's are completely unstable. It felt like an important part was missing. Just gone. I messed up big time and now I'm paying for it. Nico was hardly home and continuously searched for our mate. So it was just me and the parasite.

"Knock, knock. You doing okay kiddo?" Mark asked.

"How do you do it?"

"What?"

"Deal with not having your mate? Or having him stolen? How did you not go crazy?"

"I did for a time. I was an alcoholic too but in the end it was out of my control. It hurt but I realized I loved my mates kid any way like a younger brother so that was helpful. Kids are a joy sometimes."

"I messed up Mark and now I'm scared he's going to die." I started crying.

"You did say very harsh things to him. I'm glad you're feeling guilty but we will find him and you can apologize and make it up to him. I know you love him."

"Do you think he's alive?"

"You'd know if he wasn't. It feels like your heart explodes." Mark said, giving a mournful smile as he walked away.

"How is your heart by the way?"

"It's fine." He smiled again before shutting the door. I sighed and put my hand on my stomach.

"I'll find him." I said. I stood up and packed a bag and put on warm clothes and climbed out the window. I didn't shift as it's become hard to do so at this point.

I walked through the woods and tried to think where he could be. It hit me hard like a ton of bricks. I started running off towards the hell house we were in when we bonded. Of course that idiot would be there. He was such an idealistic person and he would romanticize something so dark.

I was moving too slow. I took off my clothes and put the back pack on my back like Nico showed me. I took a deep breath and it took a lot of strength but I shifted and started off towards the property.

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It took me a few days. I was tired, hungry and feeling sick but I finally made it. I stepped foot on the yard behind the very dishevelled building and his scent hit me hard. Immediately I felt my muscles relax. I let out a howl hoping I'd hear him call back. Silence. I did it again and again feeling anxious.

I took off towards the building when I finally gained the strength to do so. The door was open and I pushed my way through and followed his scent to that dreaded room. He was on the bed. I jumped on it and he jolted seeing a wolf in his face.

I let out a pathetic whimper and licked his face. He had a fever and looked weak and he was shivering. I licked his face even more and he grabbed me, hugging me.

"I love you the most, I'm so sorry." He cried. I licked his tears away and curled up on him. I was sorry. So very sorry but I was happy to see him and touch him and smell him. His breathing sounded raspy again. He must be sick once again. I laid with him and could feel him gently petting my fur.