After his boyfriend Newt's death, Thomas still sees him around, he just can't realize he's gone. Since he can't stop thinking about him, Thomas starts remembering the old times when Newt was still around. At first, he thinks of when they fought, when Newt said that he hated him, or when he pulled the trigger.
But then the anger and self guit that haunts him soon turn into sadness and melancholy.
Other memories appear in his mind.
He remembers when he first saw Newt, when he was only a scared greenie that couldn't remember his own name.
He then remembers when he asked him softly to kiss him. He remembers when he felt his lips on him for the first time, Newt's hands on his checks. He had never felt something quite like that before.
"Tommy..." The boy remembers his deep sweet voice. "I think I'm in love with you."
"I love you too, Newt. So much."
He remembers how his deep eyes sparkled, the feeling of his warms hands over his body, his soft lips on his.
He can't stop thinking how his life would have been, if only Newt was immune.
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the ghost of you
Fanfiction[THE DEATH CURE SPOILERS] a little sad Newtmas I wrote a while ago, Thomas remembers his boyfriend Newt after he killed him
