strange things are happening to me
I met this boy before I even turned 13
that was the summer of 1983
and I was like hey
I don't really know how this really works
and he say it's okay
I don't know either
you're my first
but this will be a really fun ride
he took my hand and said come inside
whoaand I was like whoa
how does he know
all the right words to say
and I was hanging
from a roller coaster
in my heart
waiting for that someone
who would give it that kick start
I was set on fire
I wasn't the same
but that didn't matter
as soon as he said my namethen he disappeared into thin air
dusty flakes flying everywhere
he disappeared without a clue
and I didn't know what to do
so I screamed
at the top of my lungs
for someone to come
but it was never you
never you
I screamed and I shouted
until my strength was outed
but no one came
no one came
when I called your nameand I was like whoa
where did you go
I was left alone
in the cold winter snow
you thought I was gone
I wasn't but you didn't know
I was alone at dusk
and alone at dawn
when you used to hold me in your arms
promised to keep me safe and warm
and never let me ever be harmed
but this monster in my closet
it broke through your protection
through your shield
through your barricade
before my wounds ever had a chance to healnow I'm older and I see him again
he's the one who taught me
how to be a friend
and every moment I will spend
thinking of him
and that tent in his basement
where I learned to love
where I learned to live
where I spent the night
thinking only of his eyes
and how kind
he was when he
took me insidehe was mine
and I was his
that was all I ever wanted it to be
and then it changed one day
when he said to me
I love you
and I can't lose you
so don't go away
like all the other people
who have ever loved me
and just stay here forever
and never leave
and you can dry your tears
on my old sweatshirt sleevethen he disappeared into thin air
dusty flakes flying everywhere
he disappeared without a clue
and I didn't know what to do
so I screamed
at the top of my lungs
for someone to come
but it was never you
never you
I screamed and I shouted
until my strength was outed
but no one came
no one came
when I called your nameand I was like whoa
where did you go
I was left alone
in the cold winter snow
you thought I was gone
I wasn't but you didn't know
I was alone at dusk
and alone at dawn
when you used to hold me in your arms
promised to keep me safe and warm
and never let me ever be harmed
but this monster in my closet
it broke through your protection
through your shield
through your barricade
before my wounds ever had a chance to healthen I woke up
I was back with him again
I'd never lost him
we'd be together until the end
me and this boy
the one who we'd always be more than friends
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My Song Book
PoetryI write a song every day as a journal of sorts. It helps me cope I guess you would say. I post them on the app called Rhymers Block. Some of them are very personal and based on what is going on in my life at the time, while others just come to my mi...