Thoughts of a sick head

fucked up

i was fucking up
one thing at a time
i was looking up
to see the brighter side
i always tried
to let light overcome

and i always failed
i tried a hundred times and always failed

my heart is filled by hate
sanity disappeared
and now i'm left with the crazy mind of mine
i thought my fate
held good future
and now i'm not even sure if there's still one saved for me

and so i fucked up
everything i could
i could never help myself
it slowly took over my soul
i didn't try anymore
to fix the broken life i live
i came like a wave and destroyed
everything that lived beside me

and i always fail
i can try a hundred times but i will always fucking fail!

my heart is filled by hate
sanity disappeared
and now i'm left with the crazy mind of mine
i thought my fate
held good future
and now i'm not even sure if there's still one saved for me

you can say that the choice was mine
but i'm sick of this sorry excuse of a life
finish this waste and put me to my grave
so i don't have to see what brings another day

my heart is filled by hate
sanity disappeared
and now i'm left with the crazy mind of mine
i thought my fate
held good future
and now i'm not even sure if there's still one saved for me
i'm sure there's not one saved for me!