Today is October 15 2014
I am sure not a lot of people will read this but I'm sure some will be tempted. You question me don't you? I guarantee you will think I am dilusional. That's the point. I like the illusions rather than I like my own life. My hole life has not been evolved around one direction. I listen to ed sheeran 90 percent of the time. He got me out of a lot of trouble and so did one direction. Ed sheeran pulled me out of a haze in 2009. During that time I started listening to more people. One direction being one of them. I self harmed for 5 years. Then one direction and Ed sheeran helped me by being there emotionally. They helped me stop with the blades, scratching, and the burning. They did everything in the power they had to be and be to do that. I have never met any of them pwrsonally. As much as I wish I did I have never met them in person. I have had friends that were somewhat in relations with them but never enough for me to be able to see them. I was bullied all my life and still am but because of the six people seven in specifics which is rupert grint. All of them that are in the music industry helped to where I bought cds and listened to them and when ipods got out there I downloaded there music.and when I got bullied or was in the process of getting bullied I would put on my ear buds and ignore the world around me and think of the courage everyone had in harry potter. About how I wished I was a wizard and to banish the mean people away. I ignored everyone and finally stopped self harming. I'm 16 noe and no have got 5 years without self harming badly. When I was 13 I got back into it for a month. I avoided any music. I heard one directions song on the radio so I started blocking people out again. Once the self harming stopped there I stopped completely. I can tell you right jow i still have the urge to die and self harm. But I will never make the mistake of doing that ever again. The way those 7 people helped me..... nonone else can....or ever could. They made me who I am today. And I and and happier version of Heather Michelle Azoyan.
