Fall For You-Namjin

Intro.

You should not say the three words. Unless you mean them. Some confuse the feeling of love with lust. To love someone you need to look past the flaws. To crave every part of them. You must not only love there body, and mind. But, also the soul.

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Laughter was heard on the playground, as the children played tag. All of the children played tag except Seokjin, and Namjoon. They both prefered to read, or to play Dungeons, and Dragons. The two boys were the odd ones in there grade.

Seokjin was more feminine than the other boys, and was often teased. But that never stopped the pair from playing togther.

One day as the boys were playing the teacher called out for Seokjin. Already knowing that Namjoon would be there holding the elder boys hand. Seokjin had thought he was in trouble, so he reached for Namjoon's hand. The younger boy without question gripped his friends hand. And walked with him to the teacher, who had called for Seokjin.

Seokjin held the older boys hand tightly as the teacher gazed into Seokjins eyes. She noticed there was something way off about them. There was something dark, and sad. She knew that she was about to make things more sad by telling Seokjin the news. So with out hesitation she began to speak. "Seokjin, your father killed your mother, and then himself. Family services will be taking you to a new home. Thankfully, you will stay in town. Anyways you are leaving to go to your new home." The words sunk into the five year olds brain, as he comprehended what the lady was telling him. His mean dad killed his mother? But, why? His mother was a nice woman who never harmed anyone.

Instead of feeling sadness the boy felt anger. He felt so much anger he could feel it rise in his chest. He let go of Namjoon's hand. "Be back tomorrow Namjoonie." Said Seokjin in a squeaky voice.

The kid called Namjoon knew that his best friend was about to break so he hugged the older male. "Okay, tomorrow I will bring my toy dinosaur. You can keep him." Namjoon said, before letting the older free from his embrace. He then watched as the older walks away. Not caring that a tear slipped from his eyes.

Namjoon knew he was diffrent. He saw Seokjin in a way the other boys saw the girls they chased around. He thought the boy was pretty, and was gonna grow up to be handsome. He wanted to marry Seokjin. He knew his father would not like those thoughts, but he did not care he wanted to kiss Seokjin to make him all better, but he had to wait......

Six years later.

Six years had passed fast for Seokjin. He had started to realize that he was in fact different from the other boys in the eighth grade. He loved the color pink, and had a pink BlackBerry. Needless to say the boy got beat up alot by the other male students. At this time the boy was waiting for his crush Namjoon to walk up to him, and walk with him to class. Because he saw his bullies walking the corner. He felt his heartbeat pick up, as he backed himself against the locker. His main bully walked to him, and pushed him hard into the locker. Seokjin tried hard not to cry out. He did not want the bully to know he was causing pain. He did not want to give him the satisfaction. "Ah, there's my pretty little faggot boy. How's it going you stupid worthless piece of shit?" The words the bully spoke truly hurt Seokjin, but he hid it and glared at him. "I was doing better before your stupid ass arrived." He spat. He knew that this was gonna get him hurt, but he did not care. Namjoon would come and save him soon enough. He always had. Seokjin felt the pressure of his back against the locker grow, and he actually cried out, losing is attitude quickly. "O-ow!" He whines out, going into a submissive state. Seokjin shivers as the bully chuckles at his pain. "Mmmh...How about I made you cry?"He asked Seokjin as his hand gripped the pretty boys jaw. "Please...I'm sorry..just let me go..it hurts." Seokjin whimpered out. He had forgotten that the bully loved to hear him beg it was like music to his ears. The bully smirked at the shaking male, and punched him in the stomach. Seokjin cried out, and held his stomach. He then heard a person clear his throat. The person was like his superman. His hero, his Epiphany. Seokjin loved Namjoon with every fiber of his being. He felt a breath I relief as Namjoon pulled the bully off. "Chanyeol if you touch Seokjin again..I'll kill you." Seokjin shivers at the younger males deep voice, and makes eye contact with the slightly taller male. He watched the way he stood. He saw him assert his dominance over Chanyeol. Seokjin did not speak as Namjoon Pushed Chanyeol away. He waited until the male looked into his hurt eyes. "Never again. You need to be more careful. Before something bad, or worse happens. He could have gone further. Had I not come and help you." Namjoon explained. Seokjin nodded at Namjoon, And then gave a deal smile. "Can we just go to class?" He asked. He knew that the younger would want to ditch, and the odd thing is Seokjin would follow him out the door. Where ever Namjoon was, Seokjin was. They were like magnets, both of them pulling towards each other until there was finally contact. Anyone could see the bond that the two boys had. Seokjin smiled happily, as he began to lead Namjoon to class. But, the younger grabbed his hand and held it tightly. "Let's go to our spot. I need to make a confession." Namjoon whispered to Seokjin. Without argument the pretty boy nodded, and let Namjoon lead him out of the building. They walked to the side garden, and Seokjin smiled at the beautiful scenery. There was roses,Lilies, a fountain in the middle, and a cherry blossom that the two always stood under. Seokjin let Namjoon lead him to the tree, and then blushed as soon as Namjoon's arms were wrapped around him. It made his whole body tense up from anticipation. "Kim Seokjin....I am in love with you....I want to hold your hand in the dark, and walk with you through it. " Namjoon's voice whispered, causing Seokjin to wonder if this was a dream. Was is true love actually telling him he loved him. With the beautiful garden surrounding them, and the blossoms from the cherry tree falling over them. Seokjin felt like he was in some type of fairy world. This garden was his, and Namjoon's euphoria. Seokjin noticed it took a while for him to speak, but he was speechless in a good way. His heart hammered in his chest as he responded. "I'm in love with you too. I have been. There was always something about you." The tears began to fall from Kim Seokjin eyes, as Namjoon wipes his tears. "This is a tear free- Zone. Remember?" Seokjin shivers at the way Namjoon's breath was in his ear. It caused goose bumps to form all over his body. "I know. I'm happy right now...Can you kiss me Namjoon?" Seokjin asked, and without another word Namjoon pressed his lips to Seokjin's. His heart fluttered in happiness as he kissed the male back. The word Euphoric, was the word to describe how Seokjin felt. He felt perfect, and that Kim Namjoon was his utopia. In his mind a world without Namjoon was not a world. It was a dark abyss that had no source of light. He felt the kiss grow more intimate, so he pulled Namjoon closer and hummed softly, before the kiss was broken. "I promise to stay by your side until the end. Even after the end our souls will meet. And, then I'll kiss you all over again. " Namjoon said in a low voice filled with love. Seokjin never felt not loved in his life. Since he lost his parents at a young age. He was often beat at home as well. But, none of that matters now.......

Two months later

All promises at meant to be broken rather, it is on purpose or not. Seokjin had heard that Namjoon got arrested for beating up his own father. And, his father had threatened Seokjin. If Namjoons father caught Seokjin, and Namjoon together again that he'd kill him. And, that threat was not even the most painful part. The most painful part was that his father had said. Namjoon did not care about a silly little faggot boy, and it was all fake. So Seokjin slipped into that dark abbyss that was without Namjoon. Seokjin knew the truth, and for his own safety he had to stay away from Namjoon. That did not stop him from writing letters to Namjoon in his Diary....

Seokjin's letter.

June 16th 2015

Dearest Namjoon,

It fills my heart sadly that I lied to you. But, I had to to protect you and me. You see your father made me call you and tell you I hated you. I know you will never forgive me. So I will continue to write these letters. Maybe one day I'll let go. But, today is not that day.

Love, Seokjin.

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