I never asked for him to come. At least i don't remember doing so... He was sitting next to me and it was awkward. We were flying and while i was watching my movie, i sense weight being dropped on my left shoulder. Namjoon. Was. Sleeping. On. Me. I slowly lifted his head up with the help of my second finger but minutes later his head dropped on my shoulder again. This stupid brat. I decided to wake him up.
"Yah! Don't you see that I'm uncomfortable with your fat brainy head on my shoulder?!"
"Sorry Y/N i'll sleep the other way"
"Thanks..."
I was a bit disappointed. I didn't really like his response... like boys who play hard to get not the ones who do everything i ask them to... wait what. What am I thinking? Why can't my stupid brain function the right way!!!
"Hey... Namjoon..."
"Yes princess"
Princess?? I should ask why he is calling me that name but for some reason, my brain decided not to... or was it my heart?
"Why did you decide to come with me to America? You have everything in Korea. The boys, your parents, your family and friends..."
"But if I stayed there I wouldn't have you"
My heart is beating so fast right now. I can't even explain what I am feeling at this moment because even I don't understand what my heart is doing.
"And I don't want you to live alone. You are not able to cook, you can't do the dishes and any house chores."
"You neither honey."
Honey? What am I saying.
"But still... i'll make sure nothing bad happens to you princess. I'll be your protector, your knight"
Princess? Protector? Knight? Am I living in a fairytale or am I dreaming. If it's a dream please never wake me up.
What did I just think?? Something is wrong with me.
"P-protector? I am old enough to live by myself Joon. Plus I have Soohyun so you don't need to worry much."
"But I do worry. I always worry lots about you. I care for you Y/N... please understand that."
He then went back to sleep like nothing happened just now.
But what was I saying during this conversation?????????????? Could it be- no of course not. I don't have feelings for Namjoon it's impossible. I only love Taehyung. Tae-taehyung...? Do I even love him anymore? It is true that he hurt me... and he didn't even come to say goodbye... it is also true that he is the one who made happy memories with me. He is the one who made my heart flutter for the first time. He is the one who always got me gifts...but... do I feel anything for him? I am confused. Life is confusing. Love is scary. Love is painful. But at the same time, pain is beautiful. I wanted to get the scissors out of my bag but I remembered that Namjoon was next to me and that he would never let me harm myself again.
The rest of the plane ride was quiet. Namjoon slept the whole time and I kept thinking about my feelings. I have accepted the fact that Taehyung lost his love for me and that didn't care anymore. Maybe I should try something with Namjoon one day but now I need a break from boys and I have to focus on only Soohyun because she needs me right now.
We safely landed to America and moved to our appartments. Namjoon lives really close to me so I am not worried about anything. The first thing i decided to do is go to the hospital where Soohyun has been staying at because i missed her like crazy and wanted to hug her. the receptionist told me that they moved her to India where she would get a better treatment because he cancer has been getting worse. I felt as if I had lost a big part of me and I immediately cried. Why do i have to be so weak? Why do I always cry for the most stupid reasons? I went back home and slept until the next day because I was tired.
I surprisingly woke up in a good mood. New country new me ;) i made a decision to forget everything that happened back in Korea and to start my life all over again. I will get new friends and live my best life. I got ready for university and went there with Namjoon. Everyone is so different here, There are so many pretty girls and hot muscled guys, I couldn't keep my eyes off them.
"What are you looking at baby" one of the boys said. I just winked and continued walking around to get familiar with the place. It's all in the attitude. I'm gonna change and show them who they're messing with.
A/N
HELLO GUYS!!! its been so long wth. im sorry i didnt update for such a long time i completely forgot that app existed lmao. i wrote this when i was like 14 and i read all of this and cringed so hard hrbfqhj anyways i decided to continue this story because i have nothing better to do and i got a beautiful storyline in my head so i hope you'll continue reading!! if i ever forget to update whatsoever you can find me on twitter (smoltaettie).
