save me from myself.

age 13

I was by myself at the house mom and dad went somewhere for there date night they still aren't married but who cares right. I just got out of the shower my hair still in a towel I put on a tank top and some pj pants. It was a Friday night and there was nothing to do in this one horse town I was making something to eat when there was a knock on the door.

"Who is it" I said standing by the door

"It's your daddy"

"Sorry my daddy's out with my mom" I heard him sigh

"Just open up rhi I just want to talk"

Still debating on if I should open the door "I'm not spouses to talk to stranger"

"Listen I just want to talk I know I've been a fuck up we can even talk on the ponch but if you don't I understand"

Sighing I opened up and sat on the steps.

"So "how've" you been" he said siting next to me he felt like a stranger he looks like me I'm a spitting image of him.

"Just fine" I said not meaning for it to come out as harsh as it has been.

"That's good" he said acting like he didn't know what to say.

"So what did you come out here for " I said just wanting to get out of this regretting opening the door.

"I know I've been a shity dad hell I don't even know if I can call myself that"

"No you cant"

He looked hurt good.

"I know but I think I should at least try to make it up ...I know I can't and I realized that"

"What brought up the sudden heart" I said coldly "you think you can just come back in to my life I was doing just fine without with out the calls ,Christmas ,birthday cards . Do you have any idea what you have put me through at all i haven't seen you  or heard from you in months and now and NOW you think you can be some kind of thing in my life I don't think so"

"Rhi"

"Don't Rhi me I gusse in some ways I'm still that little 5 years old waiting on you" tears where pouring now I didn't even hear the car pull in daddy was the first thing that brought me back to reality

"What the hell is going on here "I ran into his arms he just hugged me "I think you should go shane"

"Yea I'm sorry oh another reason I came Jen ,Ricks in the hospital he got shoot he's in coma it ain't lookin good" that's the last thing I heard I started Hyperventilating I felt my daddy pick me up and took me in the house I think mama was talking to the dick head.

"Daddy I'm sorry " he just rubbed my back.

"Shh baby girl it's ok" I planed this out in my head a million times all the things I would say it felt like knife when they actually come out.

He rocked me sofly sing something I may have looked like a baby but I didn't care