save me from myself.

happiness for some

So Glenn, Merle,Andrea,and Jacqil when in to the city some how I felt like that was a bad idea thay was 3 days ago but what ever floats there boats.  It's been about 4 or 5 months I lost count phones are down its just been me and the music on my phone, Dale lets me charge it  in the R.V. I was siting in a tree by the lake. Everyone's doing there chore they never give me any thing to do. I'd kill to at least do some. I hopped down.

"Do you guys need help" I asked Lori

"I think we got it but if you want go find Carl you can him and your dad are doing something" she said. I set off to find them.

Daryl is hunting we have gotten close over the months. He remaineds of my daddy hard Ass on the outside puppy dog on the inside. I'd usually be with him. 

I found Carl and shane by the camp.

"And that's how you tie that one" I heard Shane tell Carl. I sat on a rock behind them.

"Hey Rhi"

"Hey" I said sofly

"Wanna learn knots"

"No I'll just watch"

"It's really cool" Carl said with the biggest smile on.

"I bet but I'm good"

Annoying ass kid but then again he hasn't lost anyone his dad dead was dead months before. God I miss them. Carl ran off to go to his mom

I feel Shane wrap his arm me I'm must have let a tear slip. "You ok hun "

"I'm fine" I said he hugged me I started crying in to his shirt not giving a single fuck what so ever he rubbed my back

"It'll be ok baby girl"

"I'm sorry"

"You have nothing to be sorry for baby"

"I've been a bitch your my dad  and I've been acting  like you don't care when that's all you've been trying to do"

"I deserve it "

"No you didn't "

"We've both had a share of fuck ups "he smiled "Wanna start over"

I smiled while he wiped the tears from my eyes "I love you Shane "

"I love you too Rhi"

A voice came on the C.B.

"What if it was them" Amy said

"I don't know I'm sure there fine" then Shane and Amy bickered for a good bit . We heard a car sirens go off.

"What the fuck is that" I said grabbing my knife in case of an emergency. Then a red and black Challenger came up the hill It alarms going full blast

"Glenn? Where's Andrea and the other " Amy said in a worried voice

"Their ok they coming " he smiled  "look at this awesome car"

"Boy do you want to done that thing probably attracted every walker for miles " Shane said riding out the spark plug

"Sorry... but look I got a sweet car" a white van came up the hill I hope they have some candy.

In the rush of every one get back with there loved ones I see Lori comfort Carl, kid's got to learn the dead don't come back his daddy's not coming back like mine at least he stills he his mama in just now get a relationship with Shane. I've basically been alone thew this all just going with the flow leting the numbness take over my body. 

"Hey helicopter boy come here" Glenn yelled . It was Rick?

"Dad" Carl ran up to him.

"Holy shit" I said  just as Shane put his hand on my shoulder and stared squeezing it "ouch dude"

"Sorry" he looked down at me

"Go talk to him after all he was spouses to be dead " I smiled at him

"Yea" he walked off I went to my tent I just want to be alone. I miss my mom and dad I have Shane now but it going to take awhile.