The Road To Begin

Ch.14 Wishing

When I got back from the store holding the newspaper in my hand, I was count as a runaway and I did get at Johnny for not telling me that. He just let me go into town meanwhile there are people might see me and tell.

"Why you didn't tell me in the first place" I said to Johnny.

"I thought people might not notice that you are here. So that maybe you be okay" he said getting scared.

"Well Johnny people did NOTICE me, and some did follow me that I had to yell at them to stay away from me and then I got on a moving train. I ran off the train once I got far from their" I yelled at him. I know he gets a enough of it from his parents but he made me this way.

"I'm sorry.." he says, "shut up you guys. You are being over dramatic about this" Ponyboy yells.

"Shut up Pon!!...know what else they said in that paper. You and Johnny are in there if you didn't read it all" I yelled back with tears in my eyes.

"Well I'm wondering why this. Why aren't you in the newspaper. Your the one who was getting drown by those scos. They count has a runaway foster kid.." he yells again.

"Well at least I didn't try to kill anyone.." I said getting back from my past.

"Bonnie what you mean" Ponyboy asked I look at him, "Bob is not dead. Just be lucky you didn't kill him. Okay just mind you're own business" I said walking away.

"Yeah just walk away from the problem like your old man did" Ponyboy said I turn my head looking at them.

"Why would you say that. Even the more why did you bring my father's into this." I said more closely to him.

"I don't know you tell me" he says again.

"My father and mother left Tulsa to live a better life because people in that fucking town think they were worthless and to young to rise a kid. So they pack their things and left for Chicago. Even till this day they think my parents aren't even fit for kids. But look what they did. They build a house on their own, they got married finally when I was five. My father was a truck driver. My mother had her business working with horses on our home rench... they prove everyone around here wrong. So Ponyboy what did your parents do. Because I'm pretty sure your family was good friends with mine" I said in my tough voice.

Walking out of the church to have a cigarette, why would he bring my father up like that, was his family against them for having a child at a young age and maybe that's why Darry was wondering why I was looking at their old photos.

Maybe he knows something that I don't, maybe that's why he been uptight with me, and there has to be more.

"Bonnie..." I heard Johnny he came up to me, I just look at him and drop my smoke put it out and I look at him again, "Johnny I'm sorry" I said hugging him, "it's okay Bon" he says.

We were hanging out watching the stars talking about what happen back in town, we were laughing and how long it will take for us to be here.

I heard someone behind us, it was Ponyboy I got off the ground and went to hug him after. We need each other right now, we don't need to fight and his was like shock at the hug.

....Next Morning....
I was laying down in the grass outside of the church looking at all the different shapes and sizes of the clouds like animals to dragons and you could see all the birds flying around, or migrating.

"Johnny is your first time being out of your home town?" I asked him while he sits up having a cancer stick. "Yeah it is actually. I wish this is where live. I could imagine having a house here, by the church. I probably would remake that church too. If I ever had the money" he says smiling.

"What do you wish for?" He asked I look at him while sitting up now.

"I don't know actually" I said looking out the mountain. "Come on think hard and imagine" Ponyboy says I look at him.

"Well..." I say thinking hard.

They look at me hard and waiting for me to answer. Then it pop into my head.

"Wish I could go back in time to see Brady and tell him I found love again" I looking out at the sky holding his ring that was around my neck. "Who's Brady" they asked.

"Brady was my first love.." I said looking up at the sky still, "what happen?" Johnny asked softly.

"Brady Conway was my first love. He dead from cancer.. we caught it to late the Doctors say to us.. he was the most kindness boy you have ever met. Funny. Outgoing and always has this smile on his face. When I first met him it was on picture day. It was really boring waiting for your picture to be taken. Then I seen him across from me looking at me. Why he is looking at me like that. Then he started to make faces at me it made me laugh so I started to do it back to him. Let me tell you me and him were the only ones laughing that day. We finally met at lunch, lunch time was my alone time because I didn't have friends because my issues and then he seats across from me again. Okay what's with this. Then he introduced himself to me. I was in love with since I first seen him across from taking pictures" I said smiling at his memory.

"Is that why your afraid?" Ponyboy asked I knew... I have to be honest with them because I need to tell them about Brady. How I use to us before I met him.

"Yes.. guys I use to do.. stuff." I said looking down, "wait what" Johnny says I look at them.

"Yeah. Before Brady I use to use drugs... I remember being friends with this girl in my school her brother was a dealer.. I'm not saying names.. I remember at her house me and her brother was doing lines. taking joints and I remember she did way to many lines...." I say..

"Bonnie.." Ponyboy says

"She drug overdose.. I remember her brother telling me to run and he won't say anything to the cops that I was there.. know what he brother did.. he made it seem like she wanted to commit suicide.. I called myself a killer.. I called him a killer.. I should have done something..." I said crying.

"Bonnie it's okay" Johnny says.

"It's not okay. It's never gonna be okay" I said into my arm on my knees. "Bonnie it wasn't your fault. Maybe she did wanted to be dead. You might never know" Johnny says.

"Johnny. I found out later she did wanted that... her parents found her journal under her bed with a razor in it" I said.

"This is mess up I know... I was in the middle of recovering from drug use when I met Brady... Brady change my life. He knew I was a user. I was hard headed and I didn't trust people easy" I say again

"Bonnie" Pony says I smile at him and he hugs me tight, "love you too guys" I said pulling Johnny into the hug.

"Holy shoot that felt good to get that off my chest" I said wiped the tears away.

"Okay we better get inside because if Dally was here he be mad" I said again, "wait Dally.. you usually say his name full name Dallas not Dally or Dal." Ponyboy says with a look and a smile

It was strange to say his full name but there's something about Dallas Winston, he felt more like a brother and a protected to me. Dallas earned my trust and love for a brother.

There's gotta be a way to pay him back what he had down for me.

"You know Dallas been there for you Bonnie, I realized that and he looks like loves you like a sister" Johnny says, and I smile at him.

"Yeah it's true, I never seen Dal so protective over someone before and I know how protective he is over us but when it comes to you Bonnie. It's like he's all about to beat up the next guy or girl who ever hurts you. Like he would beat up one of us if we hurt you in the gang" pony says he smiles and I smile at him.

"I didn't know he cares that much" I said smiling because knowing Dallas he's kinda a asshole sometimes, hardheaded and also has a heart but won't show it.

"He's like a brother" I smile.