I'm almost home when out of no where ash's mom called me. I answered the call and she sounded like she has been crying... "hey where are you right now?" His mom said as her voice began to break... "I'm in my car...is everything okay?".
She started crying and said the words that I don't think I can ever forget, " something happened to ash I need you to come to the hospital by shake shack"... "wha..what happened" I said as everything in me started to break. "Just stay on the phone and come here, I'll explain it all when you get here" she said and I can here the breaking in here voice. "Okay I'm like 5 minutes away, I'll be there soon."
I pulled into the hospitals parking lot and just sat in my car for around a minute, hopping that everything was going to be okay. I took a deep breath and walked inside, I saw his moms face and I could feel my heart beat. She gave me a big hug and sat me down, and said the worst words that I have ever heard in my like.
She said " Asher got into a really bad crash and his car fell off a bridge, he's barely holding on honey"... I went blank "is..is he al.alive?" I asked as my eyes started to tear up... "right now yes, but i need you to see him" she said and she stood up. I got up and we started walking to his room, my footsteps sounded loud but slow and her voice just sounded like an echo.
We got to his room, I walked in and as soon as I saw him I hit the floor. My body went numb...I started crying harder than I ever have in my life. Ashes mom helped me up and I sat in the chair next to his bed and just grabbed his hand. Hoping that maybe he would just wake up and be fine...but he did not move.
I Laid my head by his and just sobbed, he can't really be going...I can't live without him. I looked at the ring and cried even harder. I closed my eyes and just prayed he would just wake up...then the nurse walked in.
Her face looked scared, and then she opened her mouth and said " if we shut these machines off right now, he won't be living..." she looked at ashes mom and said "I need you to make a choice...do you want to keep him in life support, or let him go in peace".
Ashes mom looked at me, "wha..what would he want"... I just stared at her and blinked my eyes, "I don't think he would want to be in this much pain forever." Those words broke me, his mom looked at me and grabbed my hand. The nurse told us we have ten minutes to say are last goodbyes.
I looked at ash, and told him that I will never stop loving him...and kissed his forehead. His mom just looked at him and went on her knees and prayed. I don't believe in god but I would do anything to get him back so I joined her.
The nurse walked back in and asked if we where ready, his mom shook her head yes while while sitting on the corner of his bed with her head in her hands. I grabbed his hand as she un plugged each cord...every time I heard the un plugging sound I could feel my heart breaking one by one. I sat there silently as I could here his heart machine getting slower.
Then I heard the flat line and just laid my head on him, this is really goodbye? This isn't how it's sap Post to end...it's way to soon. How could are forever end now?
