Crazy Forgotten Love

Chapter 19: I'm Sorry

Chapter 19: I'm Sorry

I think me and Hunter are a couple but to be honest I'm not sure. I think I'm going to ask him today.

Once I go to school I saw Julian waiting in front of my locker, "Hey Julian, I fell like I haven't seen you in forever." I said.

He didn't say anything, he just looked intently at my eyes, "Julian are you okay?" I asked getting concerned. I was a step away from him when he leaned in a made our lips connect. He held the back of my head so I couldn't back away. Eventually I just stopped struggling and let him kiss me.

I heard footsteps come up and Julian's lips be yanked away from mine. The kiss was pretty good, but it just wasn't the same as it was with Hunter.

"Oliver, get your lips off of her." Hunter yelled, why does he always like to call people by their last name?

"What are you going to do about it, Grayson?" Julian asked, he seemed so careless now that I take the time to look at him. He looked like he didn't care about anything anymore.

Julian stepped closer to me and put his mouth by my ear, I shivered at the feeling. Just when I thought he was going to whisper something to me he backed away and smacked my butt as he took a step back. I jumped and gasped, Julian has never done this before. He is acting like a completely new person.

"What the Hell is wrong with you Julian?" I asked. A crowd was beginning to form around us.

"Your the one acting like a slut." he said, "First you are with me, then you are with Hunter. Make up your mind."

Hunter intervened before I could argue, "She's not a slut and you of all people know that." 

Julian took a step toward hunter and swung. His fist connected with Hunters jaw and he fell to the floor. I walked over to Julian before Hunter could get up, "Julian stop this, you are better than this." I said.

I saw hate and anger in his eyes, "Stop Scar, just stop." he said, he pushed me and I fell to the ground.

I felt a pain in my chest, 'How could he do this to me?' a tear fell from my eye.

I saw regret and guilt in his eyes before he turned around and ran through the crowd.

I can't believe he just did that. I feel so bad, this is all my fault. I began to cry as I got up and ran to the girls restroom. I knew Hunter would want to make sure I was okay but I can't deal with them right now.

I heard Julie come inside and I ran into her arms, "I'm sorry Scar. I know Julian didn't mean anything he said or did."

I sucked in all the tears and said, "Thanks Julie, you are a really good friend."

"I know, I try." she said and we both laughed. "Listen do you want to come over this weekend and just hangout?" 

"I would love that." I agreed.

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I was getting ready for going to Julie's house when my mom knocked on the door, "Hey sweetie how are you doing, Julie told me what happened today." she said, Julie pocked her head in from behind.

I really didn't want to think about it, Hunter has texted me over twenty times asking if I was okay and he called me like ten times. He even came over but I told my mom to tell him I was sleeping. I was really crying, I fell so bad, all of this is my fault. I don't want anyone's pity or for them to say that it isn't my fault because it is, it ia all my fault.

"I'm doing alright." I lied.

"Okay well are you ready to have some fun?" Julie asked.

"Yes." I said and grabbed my things and followed Julie to her car.

"Bye mom. " I said as we left.

"Bye sweetie have fun." she said.

As we walked outside, I saw Hunter over at Juian's, they were out front talking. I couldn't help but wonder why Hunter was over there, they were just fighting. I didn't want them to see me or talk to me. I felt like crying all of the sudden, Julian was right I am a whore.

"Scar are you okay?" Julie asked.

"Um- yes... just can we get out of here?" I asked my voice shaky.

My heart was racing, I opened the car door and it was like I triggered Hunter and Julian to look my way.

I froze and Hunter started running to me, Julian not far behind him, "I have been trying to talk to you all day." Hunter said giving me a hug. I stayed stiff and held back tears, I didn't want them to pity me.

"I-I'm fi-" I couldn't finish my sentence without crying so I stopped and fought to hold back tears.

Hunter let go and backed away, Julian stepped up and I bit my lip and looked away, "Scar do you want me to make them leave?" Julie asked.

All I could do was nod and blink to try and make the tears go away. A tear escaped as I felt Julian's arms wrap around me as he apologized, "I'm so sorry for everything that I did today, I really hope you can forgive me. Everything that I said was not true. I am so sorry." 

I began to cry on his shoulder I hugged him back, "No Julian, d-don't apologize, y-you are right. I a-am a slut. One minute I am with you and the next I am with Hunter." I said.

"No Scarlett I was wrong about everything. You are not a slut, you were just hurt. What I did to you was wrong." Julian said.

"Stop that, stop saying that it is not my fault because it is. I got with Hunter and you got hurt. If I would have never gone out with Hunter than this would have never happened. You two wouldn't fight and I wouldn't have gotten hurt." I said.

"You would have never gotten hurt if I would have never gotten drunk and kissed Julie. It is all my fault." Julian said.

I couldn't take anymore of this, I knew this would happen, they say it is not my fault. It really isn't I guess but It feels like it is. I can't stand it.

I began to bawl, I wanted to punch something, I was so mad. I pushed Julian away from me and turned away and started walking. My anger and sadness was through the roof, now I know what Julian felt like earlier today.

"Where are you going?" Julie asked.

I just shook my head and kept walking, I heard footsteps come up from behind me and I yelled, "Go away! I can't take this anymore."

I kept walking and they didn't follow. After about an hour I was in the middle of town. I was a mess my make up smeared, my hair a mess. Just when I thought things couldn't get worst I heard a voice behind me, "Hey baby, why are you so sad?" I could tell that voice from anywhere.

Dean.

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