A Long Time Ago

I don't think he wants me anymore

I'm standing outside his door with the cleaning utensils in my hands. Marcus told me to go in and clean up, but I don't think I have the will power to go in. I haven't seen him in days and I don't think he wants me anymore. Facing him isn't something that I want to do, especially now. 

A weak little omega that turned him down. He hates me. I know he does.

I knock on the door twice, my hand shaking in its yellow rubber glove. Wearing my little apron with my hair tied up in a messy knot on the top of my head, I know that I look awful. I just can't bring myself to care.

'Come in,' Axels voice is low and husky...his morning voice. Stopping my knees from buckling, I step twist the doorknob and step inside his room, pulling the tray of sprays and rags behind me.

No. Why would he do this? After everything that's happened. The begging. The pet name. A girl, naked, sleeping next to Axel in his bed. I don't know why I thought it would be fine when it obviously wasn't. He just couldn't cope with me ; being broken. I try and mask my look of shock and sadness by looking down to the floor, swallowing my tears.

I can feel the mate bond snap, just a little bit. Axel doesn't look surprised or shocked or even angry. He looks...smug.

'I'm sorry, Alpha. I was going to come in and clean the room. I can see that you're-' My voice squeaks at the end and a couple tears drip down my cheeks. How did I think he would be any different?

'No, no. It's fine,' I can tell he is smirking from the tone of his voice. 'You can clean.' I shuffle to the bathroom, thinking that it's a better place to calm my emotions. 'Omega?' He calls out and my heart breaks. He hasn't called me omega. He's always called my Bryn. If that's how he wants to be.

'Yes, Alpha.'

'If you find the lingerie, put it on the chair.'

'Yes, Alpha.' He's playing the part well and I do too. I don't care. I don't care. I walk into the bathroom and look around. It's pretty immaculate; no dust or any tissues. It doesn't look like he lives here. I'm still crying, so I grab some tissues and dry my eyes before I walk back out to his room.

'Baby,' I hear Axel moan before his noises are muffled. When I scatter inside, I pick up the lingerie- some back pieces of cloth taped together- I fling them on the chair and make for the door.

'Omega?' Axel calls out. 'Look at me.' I close my eyes, squeezing them tight. No, no, no, no 'Now.'I turn around, slowly opening my eyes. The blonde is lying over his chest and he is resting his head of the headboard. I harden my eyes, remembering how easy it is to be cold. 'Yes, Alpha?' 

No expression. Like always.

'You're starting school tomorrow,' he tells me. 'Be ready at eight.'

'What?' I stop, turning around to look at him. He can't send me to school. Not with everybody there to laugh and make fun of me. 'Alpha, please, no.' My eyes are begging for him to change his mind and back out. He just doesn't understand. He just wants to hurt me.

'No excuses,' he says, his eyes firm. 'You are going to school tomorrow and driving us all there, omega. Now go, before you will be punished.'

I run. Slamming the door on the way out, shoving my way down the hallway and outside, where I jump into one of the pack's cars. I hop in, still having the key from where I drove them to school on friday. Starting the car, I rev the engine and speed off down the road, easily breaking the speed limit within seconds. I know where I want to go. A place five minutes away from the house.

The graveyard.

I pull up, tears running down my face and I don't bother to wipe them away. Instead, I run out of the car and to their gravestones where I jump towards them, crying over the dark gray slabs.

'Why?' I cry. 'Why did this even happen?' I stay across the gravestones for hours it seems, until the sun has begun to go down. I had a bottle of water and an energy bar to eat for lunch. I just sit them, my eyes never seeming to stop watering. Has anyone asked about me? I have been gone the whole day...No. No one cares enough to look. Except Jade, but she has left for a job interview in another state a day ago, and isn't expected back for another two weeks.

'Bryn, what are you doing here?' Startled, I jump back and knock my head on the gravestone. Yelping in surprise, I scramble to my feet. It's the Luna. Standing there in jeans and a t-shirt, a bunch of flowers in her hand.

I stare at her for a moment until I realize she wants a response. 'Oh, I just came here t-to visit my parents, L-luna.' I bow my head, stepping away from her.

She steps towards me, 'have you been crying?' The Luna attempts to reach out and wipe my eyes but I flinch, backing away from here . 'The pack wondered where you had gone, something about doing chores?'

'Oh god, no.' I murmur, 'Please don't make me go back. They're going to hurt me because I'm an omega. I'm nothing. Axel hates me. I'm his mate and-'

'What?' The Luna stands up straight. 'Axel is your mate?' Shit. I look up at her like a dear in the head lights. I can't believe I let it slip. She's going to hate me now, too. Because I can't give the pack a strong mate for Axel. Because I'm not Luna material.

'I'm really sorry,' I begin, wandering away. 'Please don't tell Axel I told you that. He'll hate me. And don't worry, I'm pretty sure he's going to reject me soon, anyways.'

'Why would he do that?' She asks, her eyes have gone stony and she places the flowers across both my parents gravestones. 'You're the perfect luna.'

Without permission from my brain, a choked laugh escapes my lips. 'I don't think so. I'm an omega that doesn't have their-' I stop myself. I'm still crying, but I manage to keep my voice somewhat calm. The luna looks shocked, realising what I am say.

'You don't have your wolf yet?' She ponders, walking towards me. I stay deadly still, to ashamed to make eye contact.

'Yet?' I laugh, throwing my hands up in the air. 'She's never going to come out. Not why I'm still here anyway.'

'Wait. Did you say that your an omega? Your not an omega, surely you can't be-'

'Of course I'm an omega! That's how it works, doesn't it? Parents die and no one cares about me so I'm shoved to work for everyone else. Beta's daughter turned omega. Great, right? My wolf is too embarrassed to come out of my body.'

'Oh no,' Luna whispers, 'I had no idea. An Omega? You can't be.'

I shake my head, 'Oh, but I am.' I brush past her and go sit on the floor by mom and dad, leaning my head against their gravestones. I'm slightly confused. Why did she not know what rank I am? Surely she would keep track on her ex-best friends daughter who's living in the pact? I guess not. 

I can't wait to get out of here. If I get out of here.

'Honey, I'm so sorry.' She runs towards me and scoops me up in a hug. I tense up while she squeezes my arms. I wince, remembering the Beta throwing me to the ground the other day. 'Are you okay? Did I hurt you?'

'No,' I reply quietly, 'but your pact do.'

'What?' Her voice turns hard and I immediately feel the need to be submissive to her.

'I'm sorry, Luna. I didn't mean to cause trouble. Please don't hurt me, I'm so sorry.'

Her eyes turn black. 'People in this pact abuse you?'

I don't need to look at her for her to know the answer.

Her voice is stone cold. 'Let's go."