Why don't you just give up?
You know it's impossible between the two of you.
Just let him go.
You're just a friend to him.
Barely a friend.
I just can't.
I know it's very selfish of me to hold onto him.
But I just can't.
He deserves someone better.
So just let him go.
But I'm still not ready to.
I'm not ready.
Stop saying that you can't.
And not ready.
All these excuses.
Just let him off.
Stop texting him.
You're just bothering him, okay?
So stop.
~-~
She's back to the fourteen years old her.
Crying to sleep every single night.
Thinking about every single mistakes she made.
Thinking of every possible ways to end all these miseries.
Life wasn't as easy as she thought.
She ever kneeled down in front of someone when she was in kindergarten.
Because she wanted to be the mum during playtime.
But she always play as the maid.
"Kneel down and I'll forgive you for being rude to me." Her friend said.
She did as she was told.
How stupid of her to do that.
"No, it was because you value the friendship more than your ego."
One of her friends said to her when she told him about it.
She thought her life is going to be better when she enters Primary school.
But nah.
Smooth-sailing doesn't apply to her.
She got to know this guy whom she likes when she was Primary 4.
She wrote a confession letter which she wished to forget about at this very moment because gosh.
That embarrassing confession letter.
The guy said yes.
And she thought her life's gonna be better from now on.
It was all okay and well.
Until.
He had a change of heart.
It was a Saturday.
The guy's CCA (Co-Curricular Activity) was in Boys' Brigade.
And as a member of the Boys' Brigade,
He has to go to school on Saturdays.
He called her on a Saturday morning about 7am but she was soundly asleep.
She woke up and checked her phone.
Damn it!
She called him back.
But he didn't pick up her calls.
Did something happen to him?
Is he okay?
Is he angry with me?
She kept calling but he didn't pick up.
After making a few calls,
She realized.
Oh.
It's a Saturday.
And he's in school.
She got out of bed and did her daily routine.
He called back in the afternoon.
She was so happy that he finally called back.
No one knows how happy she was at that moment.
"Why did you call me so many times?" He asked with a hint of annoyance.
"Wait, what?"
"I called you just once and you have to call me so many times?"
".........."
"What was it that you have to call me so many times?"
"Because you called me and I missed your call."
"And you have to call me so many times?"
"Because I missed your call and I thought something happened to you."
"I was attending CCA."
"I'm sorry."
He ended the call.
Little did she know that it's gonna be an end to this puppy love.
-TBC-
