Completely Broken

Chapter 3

Tomorrow came and things were different with Cassandra. She smiled and actually looked happy for once. The only downside was that she wouldn't talk to me. Better yet she ignored me at school. When third period came around I knew why. She's hanging around Tyler, one of the football players.

The fact that she ditched me for a boy really hurt. He will only break her more than she already is. And I'll be the one picking up the pieces. What happened to sticking together this year? Did that not matter to her anymore? I couldn't let her see that I was hurt so I walk away.

All people do is betray my trust. Throwing me away when I'm not needed anymore, like I was nothing. Okay let's face the facts I am nothing and I've come to terms with that. It's just seeing your only friend stab you in the back does damage.

Lunch came around and I thought she would talk to me then. Turns out I was wrong. What made it even more fun, was when her so called boyfriend dumped his food on me. Everyone in the cafeteria laughed including her. I couldn't take it anymore. I ran out of the cafeteria.

Someone called my name but I kept running. Once I reached the bathroom stalls I grabbed a razor out of my bag. Cutting my wrist, my arms, and thighs. When I felt calm again I cleaned myself up.

Jace was outside the bathroom when I got out. Why does he keep following me? Doesn't he get it, we're not friends? He needs to understand that.

"Are you alright Elena?"

"I'm fine just leave me alone. I don't need your help." I tried to leave but he grabbed my wrist. I hissed in pain.

He narrowed his eyes and pulled up my sleeves. Once he saw the cuts he pulled my sleeves back down and left. Tears filled my eyes. Great now he thinks I'm a freak just what I needed today.

For the rest of school I ignored Cassandra and everyone else. She would glance at me and everytime I glared at her. I've always stood up for and this is how she repays me. Treating me like crap. This is why I hate people you can only rely on yourself.

Casssandra came up to me after school. "I'm sorry for the way I've been acting. It's just this is the first time someone took interest in me. I want to fit in with the crowd for once."

"Fine but don't come to me when they break you like last time. You need to understand that they're using you to get what they want." She glared at me and stormed off. Well I warned her.

I quickly walked home just so I wouldn't run into Jace. Wait since when did I take interest in him? Get a grip Elena he is dangerous to be around. For now on I won't even speak to him. Like always I come home to busy parents who don't even acknowledge my very existence.

Not bothering to eat I go to my bedroom. I stand there and look out my window. Soon I felt like I couldn't hold myself. Crumbling to the ground I cried and cried. I'm so done and I don't want to live like this. It hurts so bad and it's never going to stop.

To my parents I'm nothing but a girl who has to be worthy. And all I feel is dead inside. The one person I trusted most to stay by my side is gone. She left and that's when I felt my world come crashing down. Everyday I put on a brave face just to go outside.

Who am I kidding no one will ever love me. I'm not worthy of being loved. I grabbed a blade and put it to my wrist. Tears silently falling down my cheeks. As I was about to glide it across my skin someone screamed, "no." I stopped and see Jace in my bedroom. He slapped the blade out of my hand and hugged me.

"Please don't kill yourself that's how my I lost my sister."

"Who let you in here," I stuttered.

"Your mom. When I saw the cuts today I knew something was wrong. Especially after the incident with Cassandra. I had to make sure you were okay and clearly you're not."

He cared I could see the truth in his eyes. I can't believe he lost a sister to the same thing. Jace has to be going through so much pain. "I'm sorry you lost your sister." No one should lose a sibling to this. It all makes sense now. Why he's always around trying to protect me.

"I couldn't protect her but I will protect you. Promise me when you feel suicidal you come to me." I nodded my head and hugged him again.

With him here I didn't feel so alone anymore. He stayed till it was time for him to go home. Saying goodbye he left. That night I didn't have a single nightmare. Could it be that things were going to change for the better?