behind blue eyes

Addiction

She had spent most of her day on her couch watching her favorite show, and empty mug next to her couch. "What time is it?" she said aloud as she woke up, managing to of fallen asleep on her couch a few hours before.

She picked up her phone and checked the time, which read 7:38pm, she frowned and set her phone down, grabbing the empty mug from beside the couch and taking it to the kitchen, carefully setting it in the sink before figuring she'd take a shower before going to bed, making her way into her bathroom and carefully undressing, the small blue ring box on her counter catching her attention, she knew exactly what was inside, looking over her scars before reaching for it, popping it open with a satisfying 'click', carefully taking a blade from the box, watching as the light caught the thin edge of the shiny silver razor, looking down at her wrist and gently taking the blade to it, pressing it down slightly before dragging it slowly along the edge of her wrist, watching as the first few drops of blood slide down her wrist and into the sink, continuing until she was satisfied with the deep slashes she had made all down both of her wrists, running the blade and her wrists under the tap, making sure there was no left over blood in the sink before placing the blade carefully back in the small blue ring box.

She got into the shower, doing the usual basic things, washing her hair, body, etc. but spending most of her time just sitting there looking at her wrists in disappointment, cleaning them carefully before getting out and drying herself off, walking out of the bathroom and into her bedroom to get dressed, sliding into an oversized sweater with her college on it and a pair of panties, checking to make sure she turned all the lights and the television off before crawling into bed, and plugging in her phone, then just laying there for about half an hour before finally falling asleep.