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Cabir had had a tough life, mostly his fight had always been with himself. When he was a young kid, his parents separated as a result he was separated from his twin brother. He stayed with his mother and he loved her immensely as did she but he never got the opportunity to love or stay with his father. He did not form a bond with him but he was attached to his brother, Ranbir  who was also his first best friend then .The distance never affected their relationship ,even though their parents did not stay together ,they found ways to be there for each other.

Cabir started to play drums to ward off his frustration but he never knew that he would develop a liking for it or he possessed the talent for it but with time drums became his solace. In the middle of the mess that was his life he found FAB5 ,his best friends .They were just as broken as he was , they were walking exactly the same path as he was and music united them. They bonded well because they could see the pain each one of them was going through, it was as if each of them was a mirror for the other and Cabir found his righteous place in their heart. Together they promised that they will fight the world together and will be undefeated.  The world saw them as a group of rich, spoilt brats but nobody knew who they really were- a group of broken kids who yearned for attention from their loved ones but alas that was not possible so they learned to live for each other and not care about what the whole world thought. Life was perfect with FAB5 for Cabir but as he was growing up he started to harbour feeling usually considered different from the others in the society and he was ashamed of being what he didn't want to be but really was- a gay.

The first time he noticed that he did not harbour feelings for the opposite sex he was convinced that it was normal and he would develop such feelings sooner or later but he never did. Whatever everybody described sounded weird to him but just to sound cool, he agreed to whatever everybody else said and the same continued for a long time until he started feeling strongly for people of the same gender. He did not want to accept the truth but the truth was right in front of him and he could do nothing. He wanted to tell FAB5 but he could never gather the courage to tell them .To him, they were the best thing to ever happen to him and he did not want to lose their love and friendship for something he considered was an abnormality for a very long period of time. Fearing that he would lose his current family like he lost his first one, he hid himself behind a prankster. He did not want to become what he was but he could see no other way to protect himself from the world. He could neither control his feelings nor could he let anyone know. He had himself seen and read what people around him though and did with people who were gay and he did not wish to go through the same ever.

One fine day for the first time he found himself falling for someone and that someone was his professor. After struggling for a very long time with his feelings he found someone whom he thought would understand him but he got nothing more than a broken heart from the relationship but in midst of all this his friends and the whole world got to know what he hid all his life. He never expected to get the support he got from his friends .A friendly hug from Manik and he knew that he would never leave his side .He no longer felt ashamed and he never knew that he was stronger than he thought he was, his friends became his strength. He was happy that he could say it out loud to the world that he was gay but how was he supposed to make the whole world understand when his own cool mother refused to accept him as he was.  It was another battle for him but this time he was not alone, he had his friends by his side and he was sure that he will be much stronger than before and he stood firm.  Then problems came and went but he felt free and liberated to face anything life threw at him .in this time he also befriended Navya and Nandini and he was happy to have them in his life. He had to fight more battles but he knew he was not alone.

There was something different about being in London. When he woke up from his extended sleep and got to know about the accident and everything rather than being anxious, he was calm and felt as if he was at peace. In his heart he knew that everybody he loved had now accepted him so he felt that everything was falling in place .The only voids that were left in his life were filling up with the kind of care and affection he got from Mr Malhotra and Manik and he could have not asked for more.