a 13 year old's diary | 18+, mental disorders

intro; causes | 18+

hi. my name is russell. i am a 13 year old boy diagnosed with PTSD, depression, and anxiety. all put together for one reason.

my dad.

or my.. abusive dad.

the next few paragraphs or so are me explaining the main reason i have PTSD, Depression, and Anxiety.

in late october 2016, my (adopted, and now 21) sister moved into my house. my sister came from a abusive family that locked her in the basement, barely fed her, and hated her in general. my sister has been diagnosed with way more disirders than me because of her abusive parents she always lived with.. it's just sad she still lives with one.

everything was fine between my dad, sister and mom.. that is until december of 2017. it was a few weeks before christmas, and my dad.. blew up. (for clarification, my sister, having a abusive family before my family, never really loved her parents. as soon as she met my mom, she loved her, and spent every second to her. my dad thought my mom only loved my adopted sister, and none of her other kids, and the world only revolved around her.)

i was in my room, and i heard constant loud yelling from downstairs in my living room. i went to go check it out, and all i saw and heard was my dad blowing up on my mom and sister. after a half hour of screaming, my dad spit on and slapped my sister. we called the cops and he was sent to jail for a month, and my sister went to her friends' house for a few days. also, my dad is heavily racist and hates the lgbtq+. i am against racism and loves the lgbtq+. i am pansexual, myself.

after my dad was released from jail, he went to anger management, but never went to any session. he kept having these outbursts that led my sister to suicide and cutting.. and me to cutting.
the only people i went to were my friends, and my school's counselor. and yes, i am getting counselling soon.

all of this was just to clear up why i have these 3 mental disorders. thank you for reading so far.. enjoy my little notes.