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“I believe this: You just do it. You force yourself to get up. You force yourself to put one foot before the other, and goddamn it, you refuse to let it get to you. you fight. you cry. You curse. Then you go about your business of living. That's how I've done it. There's no other way.”
- Marilyn Monroe
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Beauty POV
When I woke up the next day, I so badly hoped it was a dream. I prayed and tossed and turned wishing that when I woke up, I'd be In August bed cuddled up with Nyla sitting at the foot of the bed watching Dora, But when I woke up, I knew that the fantazies I hoped and prayed about were behind me.
The pale white blank walls i had been forced to face 24 hours a day; It killed me slowly. I felt as if I would suffocate since I had been seeing the same walls every damn day for the last week, All while being confined to this Uncomfortable hospital bed.
Every now and then, i would see hallucinations of August, Him smiling, Him with some flowers, Him with Nyla, And Yea, I'd get really fucking happy, But when I blinked, Then and there he was gone.
They said since I was in such a state they wouldn't allow me to leave here alone, I told them the only thing that would make me feel better is Nyla and August but since I couldn't get them and cried for endless nights, I had been put under suicidal watch. They said, Due to my hallucinations, And Blah Blah Fucking blah, it would be best if didn't see him. I spaced out often, Thinking about the happy times I had, Had. When My family came, The only One I hugged and made eye contact with was Spinz, and Marc. The rest could kiss my ass, For the simple fact that I had miscarried and Been admitted into a hospital, then they come see me.
When Nyla came, I held her and, For the first time, We cried together. I hadn't seen her Since I hadn't been premitted visitors hence the state I was in. Spinz Gave me August Room number in case I got lucky. I had been contemplating in my head wheter I wanted to do this Or not.
I finally said fuck it and slipped on the Nike slides On thr couch. I slowly walked to the door peeking my head out the door, I looked for any sign of My Nurse or doctor. I sprinted as quick as I could, Still trying to rid the numb feeling I felt In my whole lower body.
I reached the elevator getting on with an older woman. She smiled politely.
"Floor?" She asked. I had memorized it by heart.
"Four," I responded smiling. She pressed four. two floors down, I said bye, Have a nice day and was off, I tried to hide my dace from the receptionist Who'd know Who I was and quickly walked past not trying to seem too supicious. I followed the directions and ended up infron of 434.
I shakily reached my hand out for the knob while biting down on my bottom lip. Tears danced gracefully down my cheeks as I finally opened the door. Devasted would be the word. I saw August hooked up to different machines and it Hurt me the most to know I caused this.
I walked slowly to him as the tears still fell.
"August," I mumbled lowly. I reached out grabbing his hand, which was cold as ice, and hard as stone. It only made the tears fall harder
