My story. My life. His death

Chapter 4

"Shane" I say breathlessly. 

I couldn't believe what I was seeing I kept blinking thinking it would go away. 

"You can see me?" He said.

"Of course" I thought.  I could never miss those green eyes.

 "Do you want me to go up there with you?" Janice says. 

She doesn't see him. 

She thinks i'm talking about the Shane in the coffin not the one staring back at me. 

If she only knew how close we really were. 

"No." I just need to go to the bathroom" I say as I make a beeline for the door. 

Not even giving her time to respond.

 When I get there I quickly lock the door behind me.

 "I'm so glad you can see me!" Shane says as he walks through the door. 

"What are you doing?"

 "I thought you wanted me to follow you so we could talk in private." 

"We're not talking! I am!" I say practically shouting.

"I'm going crazy" I say to myself "This is just too much I knew I shouldn't have came today. But no I always listen to other people." 

"I'm glad you came." He said 

"I've been wanting to talk to my parents." 

"No! We are not doing none of that ghost whisperer stuff! You are just a figment of my imagination due to stress!"

 "No I'm not"

 "yes you are" 

"no I'm not" 

"yes you are" 

"no I'm not" 

"you know what!?! I am not dealing with this right now! Your not real and that's that" I say reaching for the door handle. 

"Wait! No I'm sorry. Okay if I am the figment of your imagination" he said putting air quotes around imagination. "Let's talk. Tell me what you've always wanted to tell me." 

"Why would I do that?" 

"Obviously if i'm a figment or your imagination" There goes those air quotes. "There must be something you didn't want to tell me in life. And you must be regretting it. Why else would I be here?"

 "You just died!?! I'm devastated!"

 "I didn't know I meant that much to you."

 "You wouldn't miss me?" I say my heart breaking a little.

 "No I would've but I wouldn't have been seeing and talking to you right now devastated." 

"Nicole the funeral is about to start." Janice said from the other side of the door.

 I look at Shane "Okay i'll be right out." 

"Okay honey i'll wait for you." 

"She was always very considerate." Shane said to me.

 I nod my head as I unlock the door. 

"Who were you talking to in there?"Janice said looking around the bathroom worried.

 I felt my face flush. 

Oh my god she heard me!?! Think Nicole. "I was talking to my friend Ashley. She wanted to see if I was okay."