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here. Here will be a series of things Tragic Sad Whatever you call it Things Things I haven't shared Finally shared The things I've kept inside

Too Young

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by -colouredvoices

by -colouredvoices

"She said 'you're too young to be depressed' once when I was upset."

"That's BS."

Most of her near death experiences

Are suicide attempts

But I've tried killing myself;

I'm also too reckless.

Because I'm not supposed to run in front of cars

I'm not supposed to try to OD.

My mother seems to think depression is for adults

She doesn't know.

Her mother never said a word

She only knows about her.

I'm too young

Too young to be empty

To fake smiles

To cut my skin

To be broken like a porcelain doll

Too young to know the cruelty of the world.

They play it off

"Kids are cruel."

"Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me."

"They apologized, so it's fine now."

But do they know?

Fat

Ugly

Freak

Bitch

Evil bitch

Whore

"I think it just makes you more of a bitch."

Stupid

Uncool

Doesn't deserve to have friends

"Don't listen to her."

I got my heart broken playing party games with loneliness.

Games like hide and go seek in a field of the naïve

Pin the blame on the hopeful

Don't fall off the tightrope.

And I'm too young

To want to die.