S H A T T E R E D

Disappear

Whenever I can

I sit atop a hill

Legs crossed

I can see down the street into the city

The mountains

Ocean

Islands

The cool autumn air embraces me

Comforting

I look at that branch and think of hanging myself there.

I walk down that alley, slipping on ice

I wave to the tree

The one that seems to worry about me

Waves frequently when I've been gone too long

Almost like it knows I always want to end my life

How strained my smiles are

I leave the alley

I'm close to home now

Said smile settled upon my face

I say I'm just fine
But really
I'd like to disappear