𝐒𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐅𝐨𝐫 𝐌𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐬

𝐒𝐅𝐌𝐇-𝟐𝟎

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Bo.Young's POV

"Hey!" Hera shouts she was running after me, she found out about it before we start the show.

But I still feel ashamed talking about it, even though I know that she's kind enough to understand me and the situation.

I enter our dressing room and fall to my knees, I feel so weak that I was trembling. I heard the door open and closed, she caresses my back and sits beside me.

She put my head on her shoulder and cry with me. I feel so weak that I hug her, she consoles me in any way she knows, but in the end, I know that I was the wrong one.

"You did the best thing" she whispers

I can't help but cry more, not because of not being able to confront him reversible the day he left me but because of the kids who are still expecting to meet him.

How can I tell them that the more they want to meet their father and the more that I try to make it happen the more it's impossible.

"I don't know how to tell the kids, Hera" I cried in her shoulder.

"We'll figure this out" she comforts me, then the girls suddenly enters.

"Are you okay?" Jisoo kneeled to look at me

I just nod and stand up to excuse myself. Hera stops them from following me, I just want to see the kids and tell them as soon as I can.

"Shit" I whisper I drop my car keys in their tent. I didn't think of anything and just walk towards the tent to get my car keys.

They all look at me, especially Kyungsoo. But I ignored them and ask Minseok if he saw any car keys. Luckily he did saw one and it's mine, I give him a small smile and was about to leave the room.

"Wait"

That voice made me stop, and I already know who it was.

"Let's talk, even just for a minute?" he asks

I look back at him emotionless "I believe, I didn't ask for your explanation, and  your reaction"

"I know, but at least hear me out"

I look at everyone in the room, each of them started to leave. But Junmyeon hesitates for a while, so Kyungsoo assures him that we'll be fine.

"Take a seat fi-"

"No need, I don't intend to have a full conversation with you" I reply then look away

"When did you found out?" he asks both of us can't look in each other's eyes.

Because it's either we say hurtful words to each other or we blame each other.

"The day... you said goodbye" a tear fall in my eyes, I wipe it immediately and look down stopping myself from choking in my own words

"Was it hard?" he whispered

I gather all my energy to not sound tired or to sound like I need him in those days. However, I can't hide it forever I need him the day that the doctor's said our baby's gender. I need him that day when my water broke, and his name was my last words before I passed out after giving birth.

"It was worth it" that's the only thing I can say

"I'm sorry" and I knew that it's the only thing he can say

"You don't have to if you choose to stay that day. You wouldn't be here now" I mumbled 

"How are they?"

"They're okay, they know who you are, what you do, and who are you with" I smile at him to assure him that it'll be okay that I and the kids will be okay.

"Can I see them?" he asked with lots of hopes

But I feel sorry to say "No, you can't" but I did say it, I may look greedy about the kids but he can't see them and give them hope that we'll be okay that they will have a complete family.

"Why?" he stands up and looks at me furiously

But I stand with my words and believes "Because I won't let you love them" he looks at me puzzled

"What?"

"I won't let them feel your love," I said "Because your love hurts, your love can make their hearts broken"

"They're also mine, how heartless do you think I am?" he asserted

"Since the day you walk out that door, you're nothing but a heartless man to me" I confessed then walks out.

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"Since the day you walk out that door, you're nothing but a heartless man to me"

Those words she said, continues to echo in my ears. The pain in her eyes tears me apart and those words she wanted to confess but just breath it out stabs me in my heart.

"She's right, I'm nothing but a heartless man" I whisper

I cover my mouth and cry loud, I can't believe this will be the exchange of what I have done to her years ago. But I regret leaving her I do because as I watch her rise and fall from her career. I also watch her come and go after her projects.

"Kyungsoo?" A voice that I still didn't want to hear.

I look up and saw Wendy, she's very predictable just the sound of her voice I know that she's mad again. I know comparing is a bad thought but as I look at her, I've realized that we've been together for years now and I was still looking for the same feeling that I feel when Bo. Young is around.

The feeling of home, I was longing for that. We've been together for year's yet she never gives me the feeling of I can let out of all my feelings I have deep inside me. She's a good partner, however, she always makes me feel like I'm not good enough for her.

and maybe she's right I'm not good enough for her, because she was never been good enough for me.

I stare at her and smile "Let's break up"

As I expected she was not shocked by it, she just stares at me and gives me her phone.

"I'm sorry, you're good enough for me but I was never contented with how good enough you are" she confesses "Because I know you still belong to her, that she's still the one for you"

"So you cheated?" she nods as the answer "You should have just broken up with me" I reply calmly

"I'm sorry, and thank you" she gives me a hug and leaves.

I was not hurt by any of her actions, I understand her or maybe those years we've been together was the two of us trying to make things work because I was longing for someone and she was missing her piece.

Our relationship revolves around what we need, and not what feelings we have for each other. Maybe that's the reason why things don't work out in our way.

I was cut in my thoughts when Baekhyun suddenly burst into the door. He was catching his breath while holding his phone.

"Bo. Young got into a car accident" my breath hitched and my whole body trembles.

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Hello! It's been a while since I last updated on this book. I didn't know if you guys waiting for it or not but if you did thanks for waiting.

I was overwhelmed by the last chapter when I read it. That was such a cliffhanger for me, but I think it's just me lol.

This book is soon to be closed, so I'm focusing on this one for now. Thanks for all the love and support. See you next chapter 🖇

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