You call me your best friend, but you tell him that before you even thought about telling me. You say you can't tell me anything then tell me I'm never there I try, I try so fucking hard but when I do you push me away.
I know I'll never be him. I know I'll never have enough trust to be told this. I'll never have the courage to tell you. I know I'll never be good enough for you. I'm so so sorry for that because I'm scared to ask, I'm scared of being betrayed that's why I blocked you guys. I'm scared of never being enough for you. I'm scared to never know what he knows. I'm scared that you can't even tell me anything but you tell him so much more. He says to break down your walls and push it. But when I do you ignore me and then act like everything is normal 5 days later like we never stopped talking.
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PoetryAlexithymia Difficultly expressing one's feelings or emotions through words Somebody wanted to read my quotes/poetry so here you go
