𝙀𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙝𝙖𝙨 𝙜𝙤𝙣𝙚.
Not even a smile on rosy lips stayed still.
Gone, as if it was a mirage.
𝙀𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙝𝙖𝙨 𝙜𝙤𝙣𝙚.
And I'm here feeling dubious and more like ominous
Asking my dear self, my broken-hearted self and wondering if it was all a dream or it was something that hardly believed in.
Was he true, was I sure?
"𝙀𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙝𝙖𝙨 𝙜𝙤𝙣𝙚. " I said while I drenched my pillow with my weeping.
I gloomed and sat myself to sleep, as I'm closing my eyes, I saw my wishes, my high hopes and mydreams, I saw me with him!
Life has served me a true lifelong love from heaven, indeed.
I heard God whispering in my ear "you deserve fortune, my dear".
I sensed angels tickling my sentiments.
And in a blink of an eye
𝘢 𝘥𝘪𝘮 𝘭𝘪𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘵𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘮𝘦.
𝙀𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙝𝙖𝙨 𝙜𝙤𝙣𝙚. I figured out too soon.
When my lips were left in pain like a super needy homeless old woman wandering around excruciating hunger begging for food.
When my body shook like a little child running in a freezing stormy night looking for a safe haven to stay in, warm and secure.
𝙀𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙝𝙖𝙨 𝙜𝙤𝙣𝙚.
Once I realized I'm about to be a previous not a precious life-lasting chapter in a man's heart.
A righteous man has been 𝙜𝙤𝙣𝙚 and the sinuous grace of a lady died out in vain.
How can I back-track the time ?
How can I less censor myself and allow myself to speak?
To demand
To insist
To fight my faith
To eviscerate my fears.
Fortune has failed me, I believe.
𝙀𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙝𝙖𝙨 𝙜𝙤𝙣𝙚.
All I wished for was a goodbye hug.
all I needed was hope.
All I have now is godforsaken soul.
One first and last kiss I desire still,
But he inched away as I approached; the man I love has been already 𝙜𝙤𝙣𝙚.
- 𝐒𝐈𝐇𝐀𝐌 𝐅𝐈𝐓𝐎𝐔𝐑𝐈. 🌻
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She writes // Not So Secret Diary.
PoetryList of poems ✨ People would think they're just separated letters and we collect them to form words and sentences,they have no idea that we bleed on papers to take out the pain out of our souls. - 𝐒𝐈𝐇𝐀𝐌 𝐅𝐈𝐓𝐎𝐔𝐑𝐈. 🌻
