I sit here thinking you'd never do me like that.....
I guess I was wrong. My eyes are full of oceans that just keep flowing thinking of what we could've been. I make myself believe that it's all a lie and I brush it out of my mind. I make myself believe the rumors aren't true , the things I hear about you don't exist. I continue the day with you on my mind and this feeling of hurt in my body. You blow my phone up with calls and texts on different applications. I pick up the phone finally after a couple hours because resisting you is something I just can't do. I'm so desperate for your lies that I'm so use to it every time you apologize . I stick around for more and more that my mind becomes acclimated with your toxicity. I damaged myself with thinking you cared about me. I love you was never meant. I thought that just because you showed me how much you liked me when we were together that when you told me you loved me and I was the only one, it was coming from the heart of you. I thought that this was a "forever" type of thing. I wrote paragraphs of things I wanted to tell you, but I never clicked send because I know you didn't care. I would stay up all night with you on my mind thinking I was on yours. I I thought you completed me but all you did was tear me down .
Amarie POV : lately all I've been doing is thinking about me and Dre . I miss him but I know if I would've been with him right now I would've been probably almost dead . I haven't been home in a while . My mom called and she sounded so happy to hear my voice . What she told me hurt like hell and only made me want to tell my brother everything . I never would've thought he would come back but he did . Dre & some of his boys ran up in the house , they put a gun to our mother's head . She said he told her to tell him where I was and that's when she found out me and him were messing around . At that point I didn't have a choice but to tell her everything. We were both speechless with everything we were telling each other. She couldn't believe Dre would do something like this to any of us .
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This was a really short chapter but I'm gonna try to give y'all a better chapter because that'll be 20
