Together; Forever √√

|Nine|

The door reopens, there stood a tired and defeated man, few minutes ago same man roared out of the room with paining thought of losing someone precious, but, one who returned is a 13 yr old, lost child, still stuck on certain incident which changed his life, his dark blue eyes changed its shade into a lighter one, it was not voluntarily done, pooled up tears filtered twinkling of eyes, happiness which is its beauty, lost somewhere. With tear filled eyes, and a wobbling voice, which almost choked towards end, " Please don't leave me Annika, I beg of you..!" Shivaay said directly joining her on the hospital bed. He could only hold hand for required comfort, that moment Annika knew shivaay can never be angry on her, her actions looked stupid, even if she takes out life, he will not even say a single word of disapproval. His hands were entwined with hers, trembling tremors and desperation to tell her how much he care.
Shivaay, with name also takes few characteristics from the deity, loving unconditionaly, also taking away pain of others. Annika realised he never breakdowns in life, he gets hurt When his loved ones suffer but never had he tried to run away from the obstacle. How does he handle so many things? When she looks at herself lying on bed trying to run away from reality, because she gave up!  A confusing situation and she couldn't handle pressure, scared to loose him.  Confused on how life is shaping up and she gave up on her life, not thinking about people who loved her. When she compares herself, she can see him standing there defeated but not yet loosing, standing here, scolding, crying and begging. How selfish of her to turn him to this level of disintegration.
It amazes her, his courage, strength to go on to love people and hold on to them, her  guilt engulfed her more, criminality of her actions were already too heavy to bear, now, Shivaay's broken state made her  miserable!
Why can't she be a little stronger, a little like him. She was staring at him who was by now panicking, voice still trembling in fear.

"You want me, to beg, Annika? Here, I am, I beg of you,  please don't leave me. Please, I won't be able to survive, and if not for me, please think about yourself!  For people who loves you, mom- dad and Omru, even if, not them, at least about Sargam aunty and uncle. You can't do unjust to their love. See Annika.... I can fight world for you, I can give everything you desire, I have tried giving you happiness and I promise I'll try my best in future too, but please for my sake, don't harm yourself. You have to help me out somewhere, you have to share your heart to me, I can't fight with you!" Shivaay calmed a little bit, he was talking and Annika is listening, that already loosen the burden of his heart. Annika stared, lost somewhere in thinking what now, creating such troubles for a pure soul? And the said problem to be told or not?
A moment of silence prevailed, Shivaay was expecting an apology, whereas he got only a distant look from her, tears stopped rolling, he could have understood the cries and answer but this silence was killing him, not again, he can't handle silence she had to take it out.

He can easily guess it's about Tia, actually the problem started after meeting her, Annika's silence and this hospital incident is a result of that meeting.
"Annika, say something! I don't know why you're doing this? I don't know why you have started to hide things? I can see you're trying to figure out something, I can help you, please let me know. Please talk to me damn it!... I can see in your eyes, it's wounding you from inside, I know that for god sake Annika, say something, I am your Shivaay, your best Friend! I will understand everything, weirdest and ugliest Truth, trust me." He didn't get any reply to that, now his resolve is fading, he is agitated now. He stood again in desperation.

"You can't do this to me, our 10yrs of friendship! No. You can't! " His anger faded the moment, Annika burst into a loud cry, again. He spatted his head and moved to her, holding her with care, sat on the edge of the bed.
This is a second time, tears rolled her eyes,  Shivaay sat by her, this time ,he won't give up so easily. He tightened his hold and kissed her hairs time to time, for soothing her pain. He can clearly see confusion, conflicts and a battle going inside her.
His embrace, always felt like a secure chamber for her, her entire solitude turns pilgrimage when he holds her like that, Annika was in dilemma, to tell him or not, but finally decided to share, he is her best friend, he did so many things for her, and hoping he'll understand she decided to tell him.But, fear of loosing a Friend made her weak and it came out as water.