HARD { CORBYN BESSON WDW } [ EV ]

CHAPTER 05

MARI :
 
    After Rye has left , Corbyn insisted to watch a film with me , after his long day in college he was tired , and he wanted me to choose the film , and I chose " to all the boys I've loved before " , yep it's a romantic film , I'm not really into romantic films but I've watched the thriller of this film and I liked it .
   
    " This was her way to confess her love ? Writing letters and hiding it in a box ? " Corbyn asked making fun about the film and I turned to face him and rolled my eyes playfully .
   
    " I used to do that when I was young " . I told him smiling remembering my teenage memories .
   
    " You what ! , No way .. you didn't , you're not the type to " . he said unbelieving me and I laughed over his reaction .
   
    " I did , I'm not brave enough to confess my love to someone else easily " . I confessed to him looking down then smiled  .
   
    " How many letters did you write ? " . He asked curiously and I looked up at him and smiled .
   
    " Actually , I don't know , a lot ? . I was young and I was doing stupid things , teenagers stuff you know , but it didn't effected my life like Lana " . I smiled and he looked me in my eyes smiling and that's when I realized that ... his smile is so damn attractive ... Like wow .
   
    " Really ? , So where's those letters now ? , Did those boys know that you loved them ? " . He asked curiously still smiling , and fuck ... I can't get enough of his smile , he looks so damn handsome , I get lost in his gorgeous eyes which are melt with blue and green and grey at once , just like .. wow , he's so beautiful .
   
    " Mari ! , Do you hear me " . shit , I was lost in my thoughts I didn't realize he was talking to me , I was lost in his beauty ! .
   
    " Yea- .. I heard you - ... Ah -.. I - ... Shit ! ". I gave up trying to remember what he was saying , I was fucking lost in his beauty , the earth stopped turning when I was admiring his face .
   
    " You okay , honey ! " . He asked putting his hand on my cheek , and his touch was so soft , I closed my eyes . " Mari ! " . He called my name and I opened my eyes surprisingly and he was still smiling and he bites his lips and I .. damn .. I can't control my self .. looking like a hungry lover to his lips .. I quickly put my lips on his and kissed him dangerously sitting on his lap putting my hands around his neck and took his beautiful hair between my fingers and his hands was around my waist pulling me closer to his chest , OMG .. that awkward feeling .. I can't describe it .. I felt the world stopped since I putt my lips on his , and feeling our bodies close that much to each other like the feeling that I own him just for myself forever , like he's mine ..
   
    Our kiss was dangerously , patiently  perfect ! , I still don't understand why do I have that strange feeling when I kiss him , I never felt like this before , like I've never kissed before , like I've never been touched before , when I kiss him .. I feel the world stops .. like we're the only ones living in it ... even if I don't know what all of that means .. still I like that feeling .
   
    I went downstairs and reach the kitchen to see if there's anything to eat , I looked in the fridge and I found some lasagna left from yesterday's dinner , I put it in the microwave and sat in the kitchen table waiting for it , take out my phone from my pocket and flirt in social media , I was watching a video and suddenly it stopped , someone's calling me , I saw the name and the picture on the screen and my heart dropped , why didn't I deleted this number ? . I took a deep breath and I answered the call .
   
    " Hello ? , Um .. Mari ? " .
   
    " What do you want from me ? , Why are calling me after all this time ? " . I answered the tears streaming down my cheeks .
   
    " Mari , don't do that , you know exactly what happened , I had no choice " . he said with a tone of regretness .
   
    " No choice ? , You must be joking ? , Don't talk like I don't know nothing , I know everything , Noah " . I said angrily the tears falling down my face .
   
    " Mari , please listen to me , let me tell you the truth , please give me a chance and I'll fix everything " .
   
    " Fix what ? , Are you freaking serious ? , You come after one year and tell me you want to fix everything ? , Did you even left something to fix ? Please Noah , I have no force to talk to you or even let you in again , just leave me alone " . This time I'm angry more than I was , how could he think to come back after all this time ? , After breaking my heart ? , He left me with no stands , I was fucking lonely when he left me but thanks god I met Andy that day or I don't know what would've happened to me .
   
    " Mari ! , Why are you crying , who are you talking with ? " . Corbyn asked me entering the kitchen I looked up towards him and hung up at Noah , I quickly clear up my tears and smiled to him .
   
    " No one , just an old friend " . I lied .
   
    " Do you wanna talk about it , honey ? " . He asked me putting his hand on my shoulder .
   
    " No , it's from the past , and I always leave the past behind and never come back to it or even think about it " .
   
    " Okay , Do you feel alright ? " . He asked worried about me .
   
    " I'm good , thanks for asking " . I smiled tirelessly and get up to go to my bedroom .
   
    " I'm going to take a rest " . I told him before I left him standing there , alone , he smiled to me back and I went upstairs .
   
       Sometimes I feel guilty about what I'm doing to him , he's too gentle and kind and lovely and .. honest to be  betrailed but I have no choice this is the best solution for me . I sat on the edge of my bed , and took my head between my hands and stared to cry again , I hate the fact that I am weak , people think I am strong but I'm not , I just pretend to be strong while I'm the weakest . My phone stared to ring and it was Noah again , I answered the call .
   
    " What do you want from me , I told you to leave me the heck alone ! " . I half yelled .
   
    " Please , just one chance , I'll tell you everything , just hear me once and I'll leave you alone , just .. please , just one chance , Mari " . he begged , I closed my eyes , took a deep breath and answered him .
   
    " Okay .. talk " .
   
    " Not by phone , it's not something to tell by phone , I wanna see you " .
   
    " First you wanted to talk and when I gave you the chance you wants to see me , what are you up to , Noah ? " . I said getting up from my bed .
   
    " I'm not up to anything , Mari . The story that I'm gonna tell is long enough to not to be told in a phone call " . he defended himself . I closed my eyes and breathe out , he left me with no patient .
   
    " Where ? " . I opened my eyes already angry .
   
    " The coffee shop ? , Where we used to go when we-... " . I cut him off , enough , I already have listened to him a lot , he's not gonna play with my mind trying to remind me of the days we were together .
   
    " Okay " . I hung up on him without hearing another word from him . I put my phone on my bed and reach out my closet to change my clothes , I've been wearing Ryan's hoodie all day .
   
    I took Corbyn's car after asking him for it and he agreed , the place where I'm gonna meet Noah is in my old town , and I told Corbyn that I'm going to visit the boys and fix some paperwork , and he didn't asked more .
   
I parked in front of the coffee shop and saw his car , cool , I don't have to wait for him , I entered the coffee shop and he was sitting in the corner , the place where we used to sit .

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Chapter five is here already !!! , I'm not lazy like I thought lol . Guys , I didn't put a note last chapter cuz I was writing in the toilet and had to get out lmao , I take too much time in toilet . Anywaaaaay ... This chapter is good I think , there's another person appeared lmao , it's Mari's ex boyfriend , he's back , what do you think is gonna happen after they met ? .

What do think about Mari ?

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Oh the guy in the picture up there is Noah , how do you find him ? ;)

Much love , Mrou