HARD { CORBYN BESSON WDW } [ EV ]

CHAPTER 07

MARI :

  Corbyn entered the room silently and came over my bed and sat on the edge of it , I felt him putting his hand on my leg , I took off my hands from my eyes and looked at him .
 
  " Mari ! , Are you okay , honey ? , Why don't you want to talk to me ? " . He asked gently .and I sat cross legged , looking down , I feel like a bitch treating him like this .
 
  " Nothing , Corbyn . I'm just tired of the long road I took , and I - ... I'm just .. tired .. " . I looked at him and smiled tirelessly.
 
   " Look sweetheart , I know that you didn't went to visit the boys , and I know that you went to meet that old friend of yours , but you shouldn't have lied to me , I wouldn't tell you not to go if you told me the truth , I can understand you , Mari .. you should trust me , I'm your boyfriend after all " .  he talked to me gently , still his hand on my leg , I felt the tears falling down my cheeks , why am I treating him like this ? , I'm planning on something rude , and besides I'm treating him like that ? , I'm not a bad person , I don't know why am I acting like that ? .
  
   " Corbyn , I'm sorry , I didn't want to tell you I was afraid you'll not give me your car and we fight , I have no force to fight with you " . I admitted , cleaned my tears from my cheeks and looked down again . He presses his fingers under my chin , titling my head to make me look at him .
  
   " No , I wouldn't fight with you , honey . If you told me the truth I'd help you , and not fight with you , I'd understand you , if we're not here to understand each other , we shouldn't be together , we should be Trusting  and understanding each other so our love could get stronger " . and fuck now , I can't take this shit anymore , it's only getting worse , he's gonna be so hurt if it lasts longer , and I can't let him fall in love with me , I love Ryan , there's no way . The tears keep falling down my cheeks and I can't control it anymore , this feeling hurts me so bad . I get up from my bed quickly and went to the window , and started breathing in and out fastly , tears still falling down . I felt him coming towards me .
  
    " Corbyn , please ! " . I begged him , to leave me alone .
   
    " What ? , What happened , Mari ? , Why did you get upset suddenly , did I said something bad ? " . He asked worried and tried to put his hand on my arm but I stepped back . I cried out all the tears of my body .
   
    " I can't do this shit anymore ... You can't love me ! " . I snapped without thinking about what I'm saying , I froze in my place , looking at him , he was very confused about it .
   
    " What ! , Mari .. what are you talking about ? . Why can't I love you ? " . He asked surprised . I had nothing to say , I was frozen in my place , tears falling down slowly , still looking at him my mouth half open but say nothing . He stepped towards me and grab my arm and pulled me closer , looking right into his eyes .
   
    " Tell me what the hell is going on , Mari ".  he said looking into my eyes , apparently  , a bit angry about my silence .
   
    " I-... Corbyn ... " . No .. I should think about something else to say , it's not the time to ruin everything , I should fix what I did , how stupid I am ! .
   
    " What ? " . He pulled me more closer , putting a little force on my arm causing me pain , I tried to get my arm off his hand but I couldn't , he's stronger than me .
   
    " Corbyn .. please .. you're hurting me , let go of my arm " . I said between crying and trying to let go of his hand .
   
    " Tell me the fucking truth right now " . he yelled and I jumped by surprise , this is the first time he yells at me , this is the bad side of him , and honestly it made me afraid . " You don't love me , right ? " . He added and my heart dropped off my chest , what the hell am I doing , I should say something before it gets worse .
   
    " No .. no .. that's not what I said , I was talking about myself , I don't believe that you could fall in love with me in any ways " . I said quickly trying to fix the mess I made , trying to let go of his hand , he's hurting me so bad .
   
    " Why ? ... " . He asked , confused this time .
   
    " I am not the one to , I'm not as beautiful as you are , and I have that bad attitude that you can't stand , I'm not romantic like you , I'm just .. not the type of yours , and... I can't ... make you happy " . I said quickly the tears falling , and I looked down . He lets go of my arm and I looked at him , he was looking at me , not understanding what I just said . I put my hand on my arm trying  to ease the pain .
   
    " Don't say that , Mari .. you can't control someone's heart , it follows what it makes it feel good , or makes it feel existing . You make me feel existing , you make me feel a good person , you make me Change my self to a better one , you bring the real man out of me . You are honestly the one to , you always make me smile , and laugh at stupid things you say , everything you do makes me want to love you so bad , you are the girl I've been searching all this time , you're gorgeous , your eyes are just the ones I like in a girl , your way of treatment makes you unique , the way you talk to me without any sweet words makes you yourself , I love when you're just yourself , the way you kiss me get me out of my mind , and that feeling that I have when you give me that simple touch drive me crazy . Mari .. YOU are my type , you are the someone I've been searching for , you are the someone that I could fall blindly in love with , you are the someone I love . Mari I love you "  .
   
         I am standing here frozen , unbelieving what is happening  , he just admitted to me that he loves me .. he does . What should I do now , I just realized that what I'm doing is too hard for me , I can't hurt him this way , I'm afraid .
   
        I looked at him , right in his eyes , my mouth half open , but nothing comes out of it , I had no idea what to do , like it's the first time in my life someone else confess his love to me , I was afraid about what I'm doing to him , but in other way , I felt something in my heart picking me up , I felt something moved inside me , even my heart dropped off when he said those three words , I never felt like this before , even when Ryan told me he loves me for the first time I didn't felt like I'm feeling right now , it's totally not the same thing , I don't know what is happening with me , like I'm running in an infinite circle trying to run from everything that fill the emptiness in my brain , i don't know how to act anymore , I'm lost .
       
        " I-... Corbyn .. I'm just - .. " . my tongue was just spinning  , I can't talk , I can't say anything .
       
        " You what , Mari ? " . He asked hoping I can say something . I was just standing here , looking into his eyes .
       
        " Kiss me " . I said suddenly without even thinking , my brain is frozen , but I said what my heart told me , I want to feel his touch on my skin , I want him to kiss my lips , and hold me tight to him .
       
        " What ? " . He asked not understanding anything . I stepped closer and looked right in his eyes .
       
        " I said kiss me , Corbyn " . I whispered his name , I couldn't talk anymore . He smirked and stepped closer , and took me by my waist pulling me closer to him till our bodies stuck , our faces so much close only our hot breath separating them , his eyes doesn't left mine like it's linked by electricity , I couldn't breathe normally , my breath was so fast , he got me under his influence , I can't anymore .
       
        " Please , babe .. " . I begged him , it was the first time I called him by a nickname like this , it's not really my thing .
       
      He smiled so big hearing me calling him like that , his eyes traveled all the way to my lips and I closed my eyes slowly , I felt him putting his lips on mine , his tongue asking for mine to reply , I let it be , and let him kiss me , I surrounded my hands by his neck and insert my fingers in his hair , his hands traveled all the way to my back and the other one still grabbing my waist , and here we go again with that feeling that makes us both crazy and pleased as heck .

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     Helloooo , it's me ... I was wondering if you are all having a good day and a great summer holiday , well .. I passed my summer holiday at home writing this story , if you're reading it then you're just like me lmao ...

     Sooo , this is chapter seven , lot of things are happening and it's only getting existing !!  * Hands clapping * lmao .

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