As summer faded into fall, things changed....but not for the better
He didn't talk to me as often as he did before. Weeks would go by and I wouldn't hear from him. I worried about him constantly. I wondered if he was ok, if he was mad at me, if I'd done something wrong... He grew distant, he talked to me less and less.
Come October 31, 2018, everything came crashing down.
The Love of My Life...
Left me....
That Halloween, I will never, ever, forget...It was the first Halloween that my brother and I were able to celebrate... After Halloween, is when things became even worse....
After he broke up with me, he talked to me even less. One night, we finally began to talk again. Unfortunately, I was upset about something and he could tell, but I was afraid of what he would do if I told him. Of course, he didnt stop until I told him what was wrong.
Finally, I gave in, and told him everything that was bothering me about our relationship, even though we weren't actuallty together anymore. I never thought that would be the last time we would speak to each other, even as friends, ever again...
Shortly after, I realized he had blocked me, unfriended me, and even changed his status. He moved on so quickly for how much we had loved each other. It was also his Prom, and he posted about how much he enjoyed it, and was posing for a picture with his prom date who later became his girlfriend...
Months later, after shattering everytime I thought of him, I find out from his girlfriend, that he thinks I'm crazy, that I've lost my mind, and wants nothing to do with me... I was crushed even worse...
It hurt so bad that I wanted to rip my heart out of my chest, and squeeze it until it never hurt again... It hurt so deep that I felt my soul shatter. Even as I write this, I feel the pain of the day when I realized...
I had lost my bestfriend and that I would never, ever, be the same again...
Deep down I still secretly hope that he will come back...
