First Time Falling In Love

JUST CLARIFYING

Yesterday I texted Dina and Lisa, saying that I need to tell them something;and when I get in the car their eyes are on me.

"Ok so don't freak out!"I take a deep breath."Last night I went out with Dan and I think that I may be liking him,but I can't do this,cause I know that it can go wrong and we can be both hurt"I finish without air.

"WHF?!?!"Dina shouts

"Wait,did I hear that u are LIKING him?"Lisa asks with her mouth open

"Yeah,I think so!Our conversation flows so well and the time goes fast when we're together.Every time I think about him I fell something warm inside of me and a smile shows up in my face." I fell released telling them this.

"OMG,I can't believe!I mean,I saw u guys looking at each other but you are Jennet Rissan,u know,u do not have feelings."Dina says smiling

"I know,I'm not recognizing myself either!" I mean,like I already said,I don't believe in love.And than this boy comes and change everything.This can't be happening. "What should I do?Should I move away like always"

"What do YOU want to do?" Lisa is always trying to let us happy and comfort

"Well,I don't think I know.This time I feel that is something more and I don't wanna be away from him,but what if it goes wrong?What if I mess up and he hates me forever?"I say with concern

"Look,you are an amazing person and I am shore he likes you too,so I think u should go for it!"

  "Yeah,Lisa is right!I mean,if he doesn't like u back he is probably an idiot who didn't deserve you. And if it feels like this time can be different,you should try,or you will never know."Dina says and I kiss them on the cheek

"Thank you,I love you girls so much!"My eyes start to gloss.

"We love you too"Lisa kiss me back.

"Oh,and if it goes right,we can do a double date!"Dina smiles

"What?You and Luke are back together?"I ask and we all laugh.

When we get to school,I hope to see Dan in the hallway,but I don't; So I wait to the last class to talk and explain what I did yesterday.

I wait for him at the door and when he comes there's a girl next to him.She is short and blonde,her name is Rebecca,I recognize her from some classes that we did together last year.They are laughing and when she touches his arm I feel like I'm going to be sick.

When his eyes meets mine I can't stand anymore and I run.
I pass for him and he calls me but I just run faster.

I enter in the bathroom praying to be empty;it is.I look at myself in the mirror and feel like someone is jumping on my stomach.

I won't cry.I won't cry because I was kinda ready to something like this.I mean,I am always waiting for the worst,I guess I am just used to it.

I get my backpack and I tell the nurse that I'm not feeling good. After five minutes trying to invent something,she lets me go.
I decided to walk home,it's going to be good cause I'll think about all of this.But when I see the car that is in front of the school I curse myself.

"Hey cutie! What are u doing here?"Trevor yell

"I feel a little sick so I'm going home!"I say standing by the car

"Jump in,I can give you a drive!"

I know that he won't leave me alone if I don't go with him so I just get in the damm car.I roll my eyes when he makes an annoying noise with the car just to impress me.

We are in the middle of the way and I didn't say a word.I am looking at the window when I feel something in my legs.

I turn to look and Trevors' hand are almost under my skirt.

"What the fuck are you doing?"I yell and slap his hand.

"Calm down sunshine,I am just remembering the old times" his disgusting voice matches his smile.

"Stop the car!" I say harshly.

"No,I'm sorry!It won't happen again,I promise" he says and I turn to the window again.

When he stops the car I get out the fast I can.I am getting in the house and he yells a "your welcome honey" and I am shore he is looking at my butt so I just send him a middle finger.

OMG I can't wait for this day to be over.