RYDA

Disrespectful

"Here I made you something to eat"  I say sitting a plate of buffalo wings, all flats just like he likes them, and a loaded baked potato. He was still sitting here watching Money Heist. Xavier never moved from this couch and it's almost 11 o lock at night. The only time he got up was to use the bathroom. I know he's hurting and it was hurting me to see him like this. 

"I'm not hungry" He hasn't looked at me all day. His eyes never left that tv.

"You gotta eat Xavier." I tell him and he just ignores me. I grabbed his face forcing him to look at me. "Eat." I say sternly. I'm allowing him to talk to me whenever he feels like he was ready to. I'm going to give him his space for tonight or however long he needed it. But I wasn't going to allow him to just sit and starve himself. 

"I'm going to bed. Goodnight" I kiss his cheek before walking upstairs. I turned off the tv and laid down then went to bed. I woke up in the middle of the night and I was still in the bed alone. I sat up and rubbed my eyes before climbing out the bed.

I peaked downstairs and Xavier wasn't on the couch. I heard water beginning to run the kitchen so that's where I was headed.

"Hey" I say softly.

"Hey" He replies looking over his shoulder. He had a bottle in one hand and his phone in the other. "You good?"

"Yeah. Why are you still up?"

"Why are you still up?" I retort raising an eyebrow.

"I'm finna come to bed just give me a few minutes"

I walked over to him and took the bottle from his hand. I grabbed the top that was sitting besides him and twisted it closed. I knew he was grieving but I wasn't going to allow him to do it like this.

I looked at him and I could tell he had been crying. I poked out my bottom lip trying my best not to cry. I never seen him like this before so it was really painful seeing him hurt.  He's always trying to put on a tough act in front of me. I just wanted him to know it's okay not to be good all the time.

I wrapped my arms around him and just hugged him tightly. I rubbed my hand up and down his back "It's okay. Kareem's in a better place now"

Xavier hugged me back and I could hear him sniffling which made me cry. I tried to stay silent to not take anything away from him. I just held him as he cried into my chest. I never thought he'd ever be comfortable to let me see him cry but yet alone cry in my arms.

"Damn I prolly look like a little bitch" Xavier chuckles shaking his head. He sits up and wipes his face. "You don't, it's a tough time. I totally understand" I reply to him pecking his lips.

"C'mon I'm ready to go to bed" Xavier stands up from the chair and intertwines our hands before we head upstairs to the room. We both laid down in the bed and he held me closely to his body.

***

"Alright see y'all monday" I wave to my coworkers before walking out.

I walked down the street and headed to the redline to get on my train them a car honks at me. I look over and of course it was Zay. He motions me over and of course I went over. It's a free ride.

"Hey" I smile sitting down in the passenger seat. I buckle my seatbelt as he drove off. "Whatchu been up to?" I ask him.

"Just working tryna stack my money" He replies with a shrug "You?"

"The same"

"Who was that dude you was with at my job?" Zay questions glancing over at me "That's yo nigga?"