noren/ renmin one shots

closure.

angst?

like time suspended,
a wound unmended--
you and I.

We had no ending,
no said good-bye.

For all my life,
I'll wonder why.

I opened my door to see nothing but darkness. there were no lights on, or any sound of the tv playing your favorite show that comes on at this time.

i set my books down on the counter and turned on the lamp. "jaemin?" I called your name softly. no response. "he's probably sleeping." i whispered to myself.

i walked to our shared room and slowly turned the knob, expecting to be met with your cute face and your soft snores. the door completely opened, showing nothing but an empty bed.

"maybe he' went out?'' i thought to myself again. I laid myself down on the bed looking around the dark room. i noticed the closet was open, i got up to close it but was surprised when i saw all your stuff was gone.

i reached for my phone and texted you, i tapped on your contact name and started texting.

nana🌹💕

nana? where'd you go? why is all your stuff gone?

You have been blocked from messaging
this user.

i called you quickly after. No response still. "t-this isn't happening." it was. i dropped my phone and fell onto my bed letting the tears fall down my face. i tried to think of reasons why this is happening.

but i knew that none of them were really what was happening. you were gone, i don't know why but you were. no goodbye, no letter why you left. you were just gone.

Months later, and you were still gone. I still couldn't come to terms with it. i sat on my bed and looked at old photos of us together. Memories rushed in my mind.

i picked one photo up. it was of the both of us on our first date. you insisted we took this photo to show our future kids. you also said that it was important to take photos of the most memorable times so when you looked at the photos again, you would be able to imagine the day like it was still happening.

I picked up another one. it was the last one we took before you left. we were at the fair together, and we decided to go on the ferris wheel. when we were at the very top you kissed my cheek and took a photo of it.

i missed your kisses, your hugs, your cute laugh. i missed you next to me. i even missed our arguments. i just missed you, and i wish you would have at least said goodbye. i wish you would have said anything before leaving.

but you didn't and i would live with that forever. i would live with the thought of knowing that we ended without a goodbye.