our rose ║stray kids 10th member au

- REMEMBER TO FORGET -

Not a request.
I took inspiration from a Chenle-centric fanfic on Ao3.
Hope you enjoy!
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Noah didn't like shouting. Even less did he like angry shouting. His parents back in England fought a lot because of every little thing. And his brothers would just ignore it since they were all grownup and they lived their life just the same.

Something about angry shouting would trigger something in him. Making him not able to breathe or to move or to do anything. He thought that since he moved to Korea at least something would change. He hadn't had one of these attacks since he moved.

At the moment they were at the dorms and Woojin and Felix were fighting because Felix tried to cook something but ended up burning it down.He was mad because they all had a busy schedule already and they were stressed.

"WELL IM SORRY I TRIED TO DO SOMETHING NICE FOR ONCE."

shouting.

angry shouting.

He didn't know what happened after. He couldn't see anything. His breathing became non existent.

He heard a door slam shut and some talking but to him at this moment it was gibberish.

"-enie. Baby? You okay?"
" Hey are you-GUYS HE ISN'T BREATHING!"

He didn't understand what was happening. Everything was just going so slow with him but the next thing he knew someone was talking to him and holding his hand.

"Rose baby? Are you there? Please just please give me a sign that you can hear me please"

Noah recognised that voice as Seungmin. He had heard his request as mumbles but he understood enough. His head hurt from not breathing but he still wanted to give a response so he nodded. He was aware of what he did but he felt as if his head was disconnected from the rest of him body. When he nodded he heard a few gasps and some sighs here and there.

"Oh thank god"

Noah soon recognised that voice as jisung

"Okay baby can you at least try to breath for me?"

Noah heard the desperation in Seungmin's voice. He nodded a bit faster since he already did it. He tried taking a few small breaths and at that his vision was coming back and so he saw Felix with tears in his eyes, a terrified Jeongin, Woojin, Minho and Changbin and Chan holding on to a phone. He wasn't talking to anyone on it but Noah guessed it was if something bad happened.

After he took some more breaths he tried to take a big one but failed resulting in a small coughing fit.

"Hyung could you please get me the oxygen machine please?"

Noah saw and heard hyunjin running to go get it.

"Hyung you really think he needs that?"
"Well i can tell he can see us and hear us but i don't think he can breath on his own yet"
"Seungie i got it"
"Thanks hyung"

Next thing Noah knew he felt something on his face and then felt something pushing more air inside his lungs. At that he could see more clearly the worried faces of his hyungs.

"Okay Chenie do you feel like you could answer some questions? You can nodd and shake your head for it."

"Here, You can press my hand if you feel like you have to stop."

Then he felt as what he recognised Changbin's hand on his.

He then nodded cause i mean he felt like he could do it at least.

"Okay so do you think you need a hospital?"

Well he was breathing fine on his own right now and he didn't feel like dying at the moment so he shook his head wich took a long time since he hadn't done that before.

"Okay well do you know what happened?"

Did he? That be didn't know so his next best option was to shrug since this was a yes or no type of thing.

"Well do you know what triggered it?"
"Wait was it me and Felix fighting?"
"Noah baby was it the shouting?"
"What do you mean hyung?"
"Well we fight all the time and this hasn't happened before."

"So Chen do you know why you reacted that way to the shouting?"

He nodded but felt tears in his eyes at the question cause it reminded him of the past so he pressed Changbins hand to stop.

"Seungmin stop."

Changbin said as he slowly stroked Noahs hair.

"Well i think we should put him to his room so he can rest. Minho can you help me with the oxygen machine please?"

When he heard Chans voice he immediately then felt someone pick him up and saw Minho carrying the weird machine.

He couldn't really recall the rest of the day since it was such a blur for him but he could say that every once in awhile someone came up to check on him to make sure he was okay.

But he did notice that someone was always there. He recognised that person as Christopher Bang. After a while of sleeping Chan came up to him and asked him why the shouting triggered that reaction. Noah with dome tears in his eyes if course explained that his parents always fought over the smallest of things and that since his brothers were hardly ever home he had to deal with that himself and to be honest telling them he wanted to become an idol made thing even worse.

Chan felt his heart break at every word the smaller one said. He knew he had problem and he was determined to help him through it.

He was going to help him remember to forget.

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Omg i uploaded again yayeet
hope you enjoyed this one
sorry if it was kinda angsty but im better at writing angst than fluff
expect another one coming soon!
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