I see you

e i g h t e e n

how long has it been? i have lost count of the

days that passed since we spoke to each other.

i stare at the alarm clock beside my bed,

it is 10:10 in a Saturday morning.

i am in a daze. i can't seem to do anything

productive. i haven't even gone

out of bed for hours. i've been rolling,

and rolling, and rolling over and over again,

like a potato in bed. it's exasperating—

these feelings! i feel like crying,

and storming off in a fit, and

maybe breaking apart, to

pieces. i don't know. i miss you.

i just want to see you again—to hear your

voice, to smell the fragrance of your scent

—i just want to be with you for another day.

i reach my hands out to the air,

as if waiting for someone to pull me up

from this madness. but no one else was there,

so i closed my hands to a fist.

maybe... just maybe—you'd spot me again

like you used to, when i stroll around the city.

or maybe i'll see you again, at the train,

where we first met—where i was enchanted with

your blazing green eyes, and your wide-eyed gaze.

or maybe i'll see you again, when i bump myself into a pole,

and you'd laugh at me, and say something cute.

i don't know. i'm in a bind, kaede.

i'm hoping. i'm frustrated. it's crazy.

i try to pull myself together and

fix my bad hair day. putting on a

canary yellow tank top, a pair of denim shorts

and a pair of white doll shoes, i set out for a walk.

i don't know where my feet will drag me to

but at least i've hid some spare change

in my pocket. maybe the wind will fly me away.

i think to myself rather sarcastically, while

walking endlessly on a path full of busy people.

i take random turns at random corners,

watching out for any familiar face, but

to no luck—i cannot find any, not until

a certain force makes me turn my face to my left,

and to my surprise, i see you, smiling.

i suppose it should have made my heart skip a beat,

but instead,

that curve in your face slashes my heart in two

because from afar, i see you

happy with someone else.

a/n: i was supposed to publish this two nights ago, but i suddenly had technical difficulties. :( well anyway, thank you so much for the 4,650+ reads in just three weeks! this chapter is dedicated to emilee mayes, because she just made my inspiration high. hoho xD love, x