The Beasts Curse

Twenty

Twenty

I didn't know what else to say. I had poured my heart out to him, sitting as naked as the day I was born beside him, and he sat in silence. I couldn't see his face, not with my arms around him and my face in his neck. I was scared.

Was it way to soon to be proffesing my love to him? Granted Knight had been saying these kinds of things the entire time we had known each other. The only difference was that I never reciprocated these things. I hadn't felt this way before. Or at least not as strongly. 

Even if I hadn't regained my memories, regained everything that made me who I truly was, I would still love him, and crave his touch. These feelings had been building, slowly, and they would have eventually come out. Probably not at this moment but soon.

But what if he only wanted me because I didn't want him. That the chase he was experiencing in trying to win me over was the only excitment he wanted. What if the man that I used to know, the man he was in all of our other lives, what if he was gone? What if I could never get him back?

The thing was, that not only was he a new person, so was I. In this life we had gone through our own trials, our many different heartaches. In this form, I loved him for who he was as well as every other embodiment that had come before this one.

I held him tighter, not ashamed of who I was now. I couldn't be ashamed of expressing myself. Either he would accept me as I was, or we would need to get to know each other all over again.

I felt something cold hit my shoulder. It was almost like a raindrop. And yet we were inside so that was impossible. As I raised my head to look at his face I felt his arms wrap tightly around my waist, pulling my body even closer to his. 

"Renee... Oh Renee." He said as he buried his face into my neck and hair. I could feel his body shaking. If the tear on my shoulder was any indicater, he was crying.

This is good. He isn't rejecting us. Not that I'm saying he would of course. Now just take your time with everything that comes after. Despite being soul mates sometimes things happen where you can't always be together. Take care of yourself first.

"Oh you don't know how I've waited for you to say those words to me." He leaned back, placing his hands on either side of my face. "I can't imagine, nay fathom, loving or wanting anyone else but you. You're gorgeous, smart, and funny. I feel like I'm sounding quite sappy, but I love you, Renee. I have waited for this day for so long." 

Slowly he leaned forward. His lips barely a hairs width away. I leaned into him, our lips coming together. There weren't sparks, no sudden fireworks but, everthing felt right. He felt right. Like home. I belonged right where I was. In his arms, surrounded by his love and warmth.

I placed my hands on his chest lightly gripping the fabric of his shirt, I could feel his heartbeat beneath my fingers. Strong and steady. His hands were moving from my face, gripping my waist and pulling me closer to him. I rested my forhead against his. My eyes closed as I tried to catch my breath and calm my racing heart. 

I had never been in this position before. At least not in this life. The feelings never changed, they were always the same. The excitement of being so close to the one you love, and yet that underlaying uncertainty. 

"We don't have to rush this, we can go as fast or as slow as you feel is necessary." He said, pushing a strand of hair behind my ear.  "I want you to be comfortable, I want you to feel safe and loved." He placed a kiss on my nose. "I don't want you to ever regret anything between us. I don't want you to later feel like you were forced or coerced into doing anything with me. Not now, not ever." It was as if he could sense everything that I was feeling. 

"Thank you." I whispered, and kissed him. 

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Sorry for such a long wait, writers block mixed with the buisiness of having two jobs and going full time to college! Hope you enjoyed it (:

 Oh! And just so everyone knows, the next part will be getting a little steamy. Can't make any promises when it'll be out, but I think you'll really like it!