Blood Rose

Chapter- 5

Adrian
I focus on the angel in my arms as I relive the most hated and regretted moments of my life. I hate that part of my life where I naively put my guard down for that conniving bitch whom at that time thought of as someone sent by god to save me.

Oh! How wrong I was. She was sent to me by the devil to make me pay for all the sins I have committed in my life. But the thing is she added one more sin in my list.
      I still remember the day I first saw her.

I was walking through the corridors towards the gym with a scowl on my face because my dearest best friend decided to ditch the school once again.
       I was about to turn to the corridor leading to the gym when a small figure bumped into me. I grabbed the arm of the person to prevent him or her from falling. I looked down and saw that the person who bumped into me was a girl. I looked down coldly at the girl with an average height of five foot five inch or something. She looked up at me with fear in her eyes. That's right. She should be afraid of me.

"Watch where you are going girl." I say coldly with my eyes narrowed down at her. I then pushed her away and  continued making my way to the gym.

Derek had skipped the school again only for the girl who was seven years younger than us. I know he won't admit it now but I knew that he saw her as the one. The one who will take both of us in the future.
         Both of us have shared everything since we became inseparable nine years ago this included the girls as well.
        I haven't met her yet because I am not on board with this idea even though he has not said anything about making her ours... yet.
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"You were a kid at that time Myra and Derek was already so infatuated with you that it was frustrating. I always  lashed out at anyone who dared to defy or oppose me. I was a walking time bomb just waiting to be exploded." I smile bitterly as I thought how that evil bitch took advantage of that situation and managed to wrap me around her little finger.

"So you hated me at that time?" She questioned. Albeit I knew she was teasing me I couldn't help but take it seriously.

"No. I didn't hate you but I didn't like you either, at that time. I blamed you for everything bad going on in my life." I look at her smiling face while continuing to trace a random pattern on her right arm. "I blamed you for Derek's lack of attention on more important things. You don't know how much I regret not listening to Derek at that time. I hate myself for hating you."

She placed a hand on my cheek and stroked it gently. I turned my head and kissed her palm. "Hey Adrian. Don't beat yourself up for it, because  I would be..... what when I met Derek—" she thought for a moment. "only ten years old and that would make you seventeen years old. Of course anyone would find it freaky. And I would have hated me too if I were in your position. So seriously don't blame yourself. Okay?" 

Looking at my angel I couldn't even remember the reason of why I fell into her trap. There were so many signs, so many hints and moments where it was blatantly obvious that she was manipulating me, isolating me and blinding me.

I kissed Myra's temple and put my chin atop hers. "I think she saw me vulnerable when I was raging inside and blaming everyone for everything. The perfect opportunity to make your way in someone's heart— become a shoulder to lean on in a person's emotional period. And that's what she did. She became the person I thought I could rely on.

"She didn't act like other girls of my school. Post that incident she repeatedly came after me and not for sex. She wanted to become my friend. She used to sit with me during break, tried to talk to me even when I gave her cold shoulder. And maybe that's what made me love her. Her jovial and persuasive personality. The way she never gave up on getting her claws inside me."

My mind then goes to that regrettable day I proposed her. 

We were lying down under the tree of an isolated park which I had found during one of my worst days. She was the first person who came to know about this place. Not even Derek knew about it.

I turn to my side and prop up on my elbow and place my face in my palm as I gaze down at her serene form.

She truly was a beauty. Her auburn hair looked like fire under the bright gaze of the sun. Her eyes were closed and the smile on her face could brighten up the darkest days of person. It sure did mine.
     I never knew that it was possible to love someone so much that you couldn't see your future without her in it. I wanted to spend my whole life with her. I also knew that she would never leave me. She will always be there for me, by my side.
      
I took my phone to capture her undying beauty in my phone. Though I know that a camera won't be able to capture the beauty that she is, I wanted to take it because I know that her face will be the only thing that will help me calm down in my darkest  hours. Just as I was about take the picture she opened her eyes looking directly at the camera.

"What are you doing?" She asked in her soft silky voice looking up at me with adoration in her eyes.

"Nothing." I shrugged my shoulder casually as I put the phone back in my pocket. "Just taking the picture of someone I love." Her eyes widen at that. Until now I never told her those three words.

"I love you Joselyn. I want to be with you for the rest of my life. But let's just start with you being my girlfriend. So tell me Joselyn will you be my girlfriend?" I asked her holding my breath. Never in my life have I been so nervous. I want this girl to be mine. This girl who hasn't left my side. Not even when I was an absolute ass to her.

"Of course I will be your girlfriend. You don't know how long I have wanted you to be mine." With that she kissed me to which I responded immediately.

At that time he couldn't understand the meaning behind her words. How one wrong decision would destroy not only one but two more lives.
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"After that day there were noticeable changes in her. Changes which I chose to ignore or rather refused to acknowledge." I smile bitterly. "She became demanding and started controlling my every move. These changes were very subtle. She isolated me from almost everyone. I threatened everyone who dared to speak her in wrong manner. It didn't matter whether she was lying or not because she knew that I would believe anything she says.

"Hell! She almost succeeded in breaking mine and Derek's friendship." I gave a bitter laugh as I realised how fucking stupid I was. Believing her over everyone else.

I felt a hand on my cheek.

"It's okay Adrian. Everyone makes mistakes. The only thing that matters is realising and rectifying them." She says softly looking at me with her mauve grey eyes which always take my breath away. "But can I ask you something?" At my slight nod she continues. "What happened? What happened to her?"

I look away from her and stare blankly in space. This will either make us or break us. "As you said, there is always a way to rectify your mistakes. That's exactly what I did."

"Adrian what did you do?" Her voice soft and laced with caution.

I look dead in her eyes as I confessed a sin I don't regret committing and will do once again if given a chance.

"I killed her." Her eyes widened in shock as a gasp escaped her lips.