Lost In The Game

XXIX

Flashback

I laid back in the bed as Kenny zipped his pants up. I couldn't believe I fell for his trap, but it was worth it. The sex was that rough 'I miss you' sex. I let out a laugh with and an evil grin when Lailah called for the third time tonight.

"You might as well answer it now. She's probably having y'all baby," I said sitting up and looking for my clothes.

"Sup baby? What's wrong?" I heard Kenny ask.

I continued putting on all my clothes, ignoring his phone call. I looked around the room, finding my keys on the floor, by the door. I gave Kenny a small smile before walking out of his room. I quietly walked down the stairs and out the front door without being seen.

"So you just wasn't gonna call me back?" Morgan asked walking past Jurnee's house. I let out a deep breath realizing it was him.

"I was gonna come over after I made sure Jurnee was okay. She said her stomach was hurting pretty bad. We thought she was in labor early," I lied. "I'm about to drive my car up there," I said getting in my car. It wasn't until I was pulling out of the driveway, that I realized Kenny didn't pull out.

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I sat in McDonald's, waiting on RaiShaun to meet me here. He was supposed to be here fifteen minutes ago and I was starting to feel set up. Just when I was about to get up, he walked in.

"Going somewhere?" He asked sitting across from me. I mugged him before scooting back into the seat. My stomach was growing fast and I could barely fit into the booth.

"You're late. I thought you weren't coming." I started fidgeting with my fingers. For some reason, I've been so nervous around RaiShaun lately. I think I'm in love with him. He's going off to college in a few weeks and it's slowly breaking my heart.

"So why'd you wanna meet at the infamous Mickey D's?" He laughed that gorgeous laugh as his white teeth appeared making me stare into his face. "Ouch, give me my face back."

I laughed and slapped his hand that was tapping against the table. "For one, I was hungry and twooo, your twin is hungry too," I announced nervously.

Waiting for RaiShaun's reaction felt like an eternity so I started playing with my fingers again. I didn't really know how to feel or what to expect from him. The silence that stayed amongst us, slowly pierced through my heart as I realized RaiShaun wasn't going to respond.

My heart sank to my feet as my order number was called. I slid out the booth and wobbled towards the register. "Thank you," I mumbled out to the worker while grabbing my food. I no longer had an appetite.

I didn't even walk back to the table where RaiShaun was staring a hole into my face. I walked out of McDonald's forgetting to get my drink. RaiShaun quickly stood up and I practically ran to my car. Unlocking the doors, I sat behind the steering wheel and started the ignition.

"Where you going Myya? Aren't we gonna talk about this?" RaiShaun asked snatching my door open before I could change the gear into 'drive'. I hated that I was so big now because it slowed my pace down tremendously. I didn't really want to face RaiShaun to begin with. But I put my fears aside and decided to get it over with and he didn't respond.

"I told you. That's all I had to say. Now can you move? I'm hungry and tired," I attempted to close the door but RaiShaun wasn't budging.

"Come to my house. We can just cuddle and sleep. Then we can talk about our situation when you're ready." I just nodded my head and he closed the door. I drove in the direction to RaiShaun's house and dreaded the conversation that we desperately needed to have.

I still couldn't believe that I was pregnant, let alone, pregnant with twins by two different fathers. What did I do to deserve a life like this? It's so complicated that sometimes I just want to give up but mostly want to be a great mother to my twins.

After following RaiShaun to his house, I texted Jurnee and Jordaan telling them where I was. We had a dinner date at eight o'clock. It's been a date night between the three of us for about three months. This time I decided to ask our older sister Deja to join us. She's home from college for the summer.

Once I stepped foot in RaiShaun's house, my heart fluttered. The many times I've snuck in here to have sex with him and never got caught replayed throughout my head. I took my shoes off when I made it to RaiShaun's room and laid across the bed.

"So you wanna talk about something that you already know?" I asked scared to look up at him. I never expected him to be too mad at me. He knew that I was dealing with more than just him.

"I just wanna know who's the other nigga? Cuz if it Kenny, I won't be able to co-parent. If that's how all this goes. That nigga a different breed and I can't relate to him," RaiShaun said never taking his eyes off of me. "Let's just go watch a movie with my sister." RaiShaun pulled me up out the bed and dragged me to the living room.

"Crazy how I'm a twin and I'm bout to have a twin. Just one twin though." Raishaun finished talking to himself as RaiChelle walked in holding The Wood, Next Friday & Jason's Lyric. We sat around watching the movies and I enjoyed feeling like I was finally apart of their family.

"So wait? I'm so lost, I feel slow. Y'all telling me that Tia and Tamera momma and Craig auntie Suga ain't the same woman?" RaiChelle asked seriously confused. I laughed hard as I held my stomach. We've been going over this for at least 30 minutes with the tv on pause.

It's crazy how much Jackée Harry and Kym Whitley looked alike, almost as if they were twins. Most people couldn't tell the difference but I knew they weren't the same person because of their voices. Kym's voice was deeper and raspier. Maybe they're twins with different daddies. I thought to myself because even though I googled them and I know that they aren't related, it still amazes me how much they favor.

I got off the couch, laughing and trying to do the wiggles to keep my urine inside of me. Looking back at Raichelle, noticing her confused look once again, I laughed so hard that pee started trickling down my legs.

"You need help baby momma?" RaiShaun asked taking Next Friday off pause.

"One of these babies are on my bladder. I'm okay though. Bring me a towel." When I made it the bathroom, I squirmed around while pulling my jogging pants down and released my urine into the toilet. The feeling of the pressure releasing off my bladder felt so breathtaking.

After cleaning myself up, I headed back into the living room. I grabbed my keys and empty McDonald's bag. I thought that my appetite was gone but once I got comfortable on their couch, the food was basically already gone.

"Yo Myya, can I talk to you about something?" The look on RaiChelle's face told me, either she caught on or RaiShaun had told her.

"I really gotta meet with my sisters. It's 7:30 pm and I supposed to be there a few minutes before 8 pm," I said throwing my trash away. "I'll see ya later." I walked out the front door and let out an air of breath that I didn't even know I was holding in.

"Just four more months Demyya."