Ave Atque Vale - Jace Wayland

Letter 001

Dearest Lyla Lovelace

15.3.18

I love you so much it hurts, I thought that I could last awhile without you but I can barely even eat or drink anymore because my stomach has felt so unsettled since you have left.

Everywhere I look it reminds me of you, I can't stand this pain anymore and I also haven't even been able to go into battle because I'm so weak emotionally which is making me physically weak.

I have given you a week to reply but you still haven't, I love you so much but I don't know how I feel about us anymore.

We are still together but we aren't talking and you won't reply to me, I'm now wondering if you even love me the slightest bit.

You are my whole world and you ignoring me is the worst pain I have felt, every second you are on my mind but when I think of you it feels like a blade sliding painfully slowly through to my chest to my heart.

Come home Lyla, the institute misses you so dearly and same goes for me actually I miss everything about you, your presence, your laugh, your smile, your face and holding you close to me.

I haven't been able to leave the institute because everyone won't allow me to because they all say I will go crazy but as soon as I'm able to I'm going to go to you.

I need you in my life more than anyone, Alec as my parabatai has been able to feel my pain it's also hurting him so much.

Come back to us, Love your one and only J.C. Herondale.