TW: suicide
he wakes up, numb once again.
this isn't new,
but why does it feel different today?
nothing's changed,
he still misses him,
he still wishes he were here,
he still loves him.
today,
he feels braver.
and he decides,
today will be the day.
the day that he is gone too.
what would've been their fifth anniversary,
now will be a day to mourn,
to grief and to cry,
to love,
to finally be reunited with him.
its 1:04 in the morning,
the time that he said he would be back soon.
except he never came back,
but it's okay,
because he will see him soon.
he picks up the sharp blade,
and he cuts.
deep, red slashes scar his arms,
dark red blood drowning his sorrows
like how alcohol once could.
he barely feels the pain.
he cries
he hurts
he lets go.
he breaths,
until he doesn't.
he is gone, forever.
just like his lover.
he was suffocating.
he was suffocating slowly on the inside,
being ripped apart piece by piece each day
until he finally ran out of breath.
his misery had finally ended,
he would no longer be on earth to feel the pain
he would no longer be on earth to love with everything he had.
his story had ended,
one that would never be told,
for it was a beautiful nightmare of love.
it was his beautiful nightmare.
fin.
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suffocating | gyuhan
Fanfictionmingyu missing jeonghan, because that's all he can do
