One Million Tears

Prologue

"Love means waiting."

"Love is seeing an imperfect person perfectly."

"Love means never having to say you're sorry."

There are so many meanings of love. And para sa'kin pare-pareho lang naman ang ibig sabihin nun. Love is about taking risk and being brave. You always feel everything kapag na-inlove ka na-hurt, depression, stressed, happy, wonderful, blessed, thankful, sorry, broken, and the likes. Minsan naiisip pa natin na mas minahal natin yung nauna kesa sa pangalawa or yung pangalawa kesa sa nauna. Minsan nagagawa pa natin magkumpara. Minsan naman feeling natin hindi natin minahal yung taong 'to. Minsan naman nagiging tanga tayo. Madalas nagpapaka-martyr. At madalas lahat tayo pag nagmamahal, nasasaktan.

Kapag nagmahal ka, palaging kasama dun ang masaktan. Kumbaga PACKAGE DEAL na yun. Kung hindi ka willing masaktan, wag ka nalang magmahal. It is part of the process. Part ng love story ng kahit sinong tao sa mundo. O ng mga hayop. O ng iba pang mga elemento na marunong umibig.

When I fell inlove with him, I almost felt everything. Minsan naisip ko ang swerte ko kasi alam ko na ata halos lahat ng feeling sa mundo. Feeling ng masaktan, madepressed, ma-overwhelm, ma-paranoid, ma-obsessed, maging option, mabalewala, magmukhang tanga, maging martyr, magalit ng sobra, umiyak araw-araw, magpanggap, magbago, magmahal, at mahalin. This is how I started to write our love story.

The story of my unconditional love for him.

Our own love story.

I take risk. I sacrifice. And did everything for him. He's not your typical guy. Hindi siya ideal man ng karamihan sa mga babae na tall, white, and handsome. Hindi rin siya mahilig sa sports. Kung naglalaro man siya, Badminton. Pero minsan lang. Hindi rin siya religious pero may takot siya sa Diyos. Kung hindi mo siya kilala, hindi mo maiintindihan ang ugali niya. Only people who have a lot of patience ang makakatagal sa kanya. Kasi..sa mata ng ibang tao, masama siya.

Despite all of it, I still manage myself to understand him and let him be a part of my world. Cause really, he's not the guy that other people think he really is. Cause he is way better than anyone else.