My brother just died, now im falling for his bestfriend?

My brother just died, now im falling for his bestfriend? Chapter 2

We were watching 'The Grudge' Frankie forced us to watch it, obviously wanting me to be scared and cuddle up with him which I fought the urge to.


Most people had gone now, it was just me Frankie and Jason. Just when Frankie tried to place his arm around my shoulders I heard a knock at the door. Must be fate. I quickly got up and slid through the hallway to the door.


''Connie!'' Sadie cried, hugging me and sending me to the floor. When I said she cried I mean literally, tears were streaming down her face.


''Sadie, what's up? Don't cry.'' I tried to calm her down, I rubbed her back and I felt someone's hand on my shoulder. I turned to see Jason knelt down next to me, rubbing Sadie's back with his hand.


We waited a few minutes before asking what was wrong again, the only answer she gave us was a loud scream and more tears. This got me seriously worried why was she acting so emotional? She's usually so care free.


''Sadie, tell us what's wrong, where's Martin?'' Jason calmly said still rubbing Sadie's back.


She let out a louder cry than she did before and started to pull on her hair. I felt my heart beating faster, every small noise she made my heart pounded even more.


''Did you and Martin get into a fight?'' Jason asked lifting her head up. It looked like they were about to kiss, the distance between them was so short but Jason looked really serious, his face frowning and his body tightened. Sadie however looked bewildered and upset, her body was in a pile on the floor and she rocked herself back and forth.


''He's gone, he's gone, he's gone.'' She sceamed punching Jason in his chest, she kept repeating those words over and over again. ''He's gone, he's gone.'' She carried on for another minute or so.


''Shh.'' I said holding her hand.


''Who's gone?'' Jason finally pitched in.

''Martin, he's gone, he can't come back, he can't ever come back!'' She started screaming again. What did she mean he's gone? He can't ever come back? I swear she was on crack or something. She kept pulling at her hair, I could see it strand by strand falling to my cold floor. Jason stood up.


''Where's he gone Sadie?'' He sounded very serious, he sounded like he could punch someone this very second, i'd never seen this side to him before.


Sadie was no help, she carried on crying and muttering thing's to herself.


''Sadie, fucking hell where is he?'' Jason shouted. I fell back in shock, he sounded angry. Sadie stopped looking up at him, tear still streaming down her face.


''He's dead!'' She shot him a disgusted look and carried on with her rocking technique.

Wait rewind!!!


I think my heart just jumped a 1000 beats, is that possible? I took in what Sadie just said. He's dead. Martin's dead? My brother? I felt tears running down my face. I looked up at Jason, he looked shocked, worried, his face showed he didn't believe what he was hearing. To be quite frank I couldn't believe it either.


My eyes began to burn and I clenched my face to stop the tears.


''How?'' I heard Jason say to Sadie as I carried on crying.


''On... the way to... Connie's.... birthday party... car... crash.'' She stopped in between words to hold back her tears.


I heard a thump on the floor and saw Jason sat there looking blank.


I was scared, Martin can't be dead, not my brother. The phone rang, I ignored it, I couldn't even hear my own thought's at the minute.


''Hello......Right......Yes I understand......Are you sure?..........Thankyou'' Jason spoke down the phone. He didn't look upset, he had no emotion on his face at all.


''Shit, Connie im sorry.'' He started ''That was the police, im so sorry Connie, he's gone.'' He sighed, not looking bothered. I leapt to my feet ad slapped him. He glared at me, frowning with the look of shock in his eyes. I pushed him into the door and ran upstairs. He didn't care at all, he actually looked happy Martin was gone.


''Get out of my fucking house! He was supposed to be your best friend! Why are you not crying!'' I yelled down the stairs, my cheeks felt bright red and I knew my nose was running.
He looked at me with comforting eyes, trying to bring me back down to him.

I screamed at the top of my voice and crashed down on my bed. I felt lost. You know when your little and your Mum bring's you to the supermarket for the first time and you make your way round the shop not realising your Mum's no where near you, and you start to cry because you think your lost forever and there's no way to find her. That's how I feel right now. I practically screamed the whole house down.
Tears ran down my face and I couldn't stop crying,I thought id stop eventually but it was like I had an on going water supply.

I heard the door downstairs open and close a couple of times but I wasn't really that bothered. I wanted to die right now. I wanted to go to the kitchen and cut myself until all my blood was out and I could cry no more, I bet even if I died right now my tears would keep falling.

My heart ached, I felt like I was bleeding inside and no matter how many plasters you put on me or no matter what size, the bleeding would never stop.

I heard the door shut one more and crying came from downstairs. I do hope Sadie isn't back.

I don't want to talk to anyone right now. Not anyone.