Virgil's veiw of things

Im just done

What is this?

It's like fear

But stronger

My heart is beating out of my chest

My cheeks are hot

My palms are sweaty

I've lost my appetite

And all I want to do it be with him

Why do I want to be with him?

What is wrong with me?

I hate people

No exceptions

But then why do I want to be in his arms as he holds me tight?

This is not okay

My heart is just going to be crushed when he breaks up with me...

He probably doesn't even know my name…

I'll look like such a fool…

I can't get my hopes up...

He probably has a girlfriend…

Just forget about him

And his beautiful eyes that sparkle in the sun

And amazing voice that could sing any baby to sleep in seconds

And the way he gives me a little smile when I'm caught staring…..

Damnit.

He's in my head

I need to stop

Now.

I can't be thinking about this

I will be humiliated when he rejects me

I'm done with emotions.

I'm done with people.

I'm done with him.

I'm done with the illusion of love.

I'm just done.